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Hello BloG!

2005-09-18T22:05:00.000-07:00

Hello blog n to ALL again!

Yesh..i'm back in action..after a month long hiatus!

Wad's it been like since the last update(well effectively after b4 the story...aniway, i've done up the story! enjoy..erm...though i doubt pple will enjoy it..=p). Very crazee months...esp preparations for recital. It's totally nuts! Where do i start?

okie..from ytd. Slept @ 1am watching The Mexican. It was totally funny(erm..u may beg to disagree..i dunch noe). but was thoroughly entertained. Den dere was the part bout Julia Roberts asking her kidnapper(who happens to b quite a sensitive guy..ironic huh? he's a hired hitman btw..haha). "When 2 pple love each other, but cant seem to get along with each other, when does it come to a point of time where enough is enough?". Then he replies " It's never enough". ERm....i may haf changed the words abit, but tt's the gist basically. *Food for thought ;)*

Exams exams exams....only haf 1 thing to say. Chem was okie. Other den tt, erm...haha..*cough cough*. Maths was tough, physics was a rather traumatic experience .Not forgetting GP. it was so-so. Okie..must tahan till wed.

During e whole 1 week hol was juz mugging my guts out. Whole week stayed @ home mugging. How many pple lost their insanity during tt week? erm...countless....i tink. but anyway, i had a plesant surprise.

On fridae(of the hol), i had nthg better to do, so i decided to send an sms to Power98 (dedication larhz). So surprisingly, the DJ read it(erm..dunnoe whether ya guys heard it). n den...abt 3 hrs later(around 6pm). He called me, n told me i haf a chance of winning 2 tix to Starlight Cinema! den i was like "wad the ?!?!" i was totally amazed!! Den he asked me a qn, but i didn't noe e answer. guess wad, he gave me the answer, n told me tt wen i was on air later,tt i gave the correct answer, n i would win the tix. ! !!! unbelievable huh? so i was kinda on AIR n acted abit shocked la...haha...! of coz,i was STILL in shock, even after the call! Anyway, wad bout the tix? hmm...another time!

Okay...wad else shuld i tok abt ...dun wanna type too much, coz u'll gonna bore out. Well, other den e recital, teachers day, national day..erm..wad other day. cant tink of. those will tok abt em some other time. the other significant thing is joining my cousin's church...yeah.. @ least im staying put for some time.been wandering for too long. time to ..settle down.

That's all folks..for now. till nxt time. hah ;)

= Life is short. Take it Easy =

2005-07-30T23:23:00.000-07:00

now, bout The Story

havent realli tot of a suitable ending. all seem v cliche, furthermore, v bz for recital. nvm. i'll definitely wanna finish it. anyway, to everyone out deres, dun forget bout my recital ya! ur support would b greatly appreciated ya! tc n God Bless! ^_^

2005-07-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

Truth

We Seek it All the Time

But is it Worthwhile?

Maybe, Maybe Not

One Thing is for Sure

The Journey To Find it is Always There

Time

How do you define it?

By the hours, minutes or seconds?

Does it really matter to us?

No

Time not spent wisely is not Time Wasted

More importantly

Time is Life

Time is How we Spend Our Life

2005-07-22T08:56:00.000-07:00

What do u Ponder on?

Hmm....

Studies, Relationships, Future?

One Thing Works for Sure

Just Relax.

A Story Part II

2005-07-16T00:43:00.000-07:00

Part II

She never felt so tired in her whole life. Sleep was something she lacked this past couple of days,especially since SYF was just around the corner. She just hoped that everything will pay off. The only thing that disappointed her was that she had totally forgetten the notes and came in at the wrong time during the practice. "It's just one of those days,Yvonne, it's just one of those days", she calmly reassured herself.
The school canteen was rather empty, save for a few students who were either studying, or just happily chatting away. Reading her last message from her best friend, Debbie, it read "meet u in canteen @ 7 ". The time on her handphone read 6.55pm. Nice.

There was a heated quarrel at the basketball court.

"Coach, just today, please!", begged Jason. "First you defied my instructions, and then you flared up during the match! Now you make some unreasonable demands, like going home early? What has gotten into your head! One more time you behave that away, you be out of the Nationals, and i don't care about how you feel!", his coach retorted back.

There was a momentarily silence at the basketball court. He looked around him and saw that they had become the centre of attraction. Clenching his fist, he stormed out of the basketball court and into the grandstand. "Resume the training. Anybody not doing so will join him!". The team immediately went back to training, fearing for their own welfare. Taking his belongings, Jason walked hastily to the toilet. Staring at the mirror, he saw a sweaty, grim looking image of himself. Turning on the tap, he kept splashing cold water onto his face.

"Debbie! Thought you were not coming!", asked Yvonne.
"Vonne! Relax lar! Just hanging around with my dance friends. Today's session was great. I'm so confident that i think SYF would a breeze la!", her friend answered enthusiastically.
"Just you and your sudden state of euphoria. Anyway, how's things between you and Matt? Heard you'll patched up huh?"
"Ya, and guess what? He even brought me a bouquet of roses and sent them to my class personally! I was like 'oh my gosh'!"
"You've gotta be kidding right?"
"Not at all! Ask QQ! She'll tell you the same thing!"
"Bet tongues will start wagging! So lucky la! If only i had such a boyfriend, but nah! I'm not into this kind of romantic stuff. My hair stands whenever i hear them"
"You ah, so unsentimental sometimes. What's up anyway? You seemed quite distracted. Something bothering ya?", she asked, concerned.
"Nothing really", Yvonne answered hastily. On second thought,she decided to open up. No harm in doing so anyway. "Oh well, it's about this friend of mine......"

8.34pm

"Jie, how are you today? ". There was no answer. Her eyes remained shut. "I know, it's abit crazy talking to someone who's still in a coma, but the doctor said that if we spoke to you everyday, you'll wake up one day. I'm not going to give up on you Jie, so don't give up on me." Jason held her hand tightly, hoping for a miracle to happen.

9.58pm

Jason hated coming home. Being ostracized by your parents was not a pleasant thing, but he knew he had no where else to go. His computer had been switched on the whole day. He was downloading a movie online. He knew it was illegal, but he did not care. He just needed something to get his mind off everything that was going on now. He saw a flashing blue colour at his toolbar. A conversation window! Without hesitation, he clicked on it.

'Angel: Hi!'

Above the message, it wrote "Angel may not reply as he or her status is set to Away".

He looked at the time at which the message was sent. "O gosh! 9.30pm!"

'Happy Kid: hi! sorry for not replying! Just got back!'

Jason waited eagerly for "Angel's" reply.

Angel:HEY! Where were u?
Happy Kid: Sorry lar! juz got bac. training today was very sianz i tell u.
Angel: o realli? what happened?

Jason mentioned his ordeal to her. He usually did not like sharing his personal issues with people, but the only person he could confide his feelings in now was Angel.

Happy Kid: So ya, tt's wad happened todae...
Angel: Sorry to hear that...but i doubt your coach would be that bad right?
Happy Kid: Aiyah, dun tok bout it anyway. how was your day aniwae?
Angel: No better either. i've got a whole pile of tutorials to do, and the tutors are BREATHING down my neck la! tis sux!
Happy Kid: ^5
Angel: ^5! lol! aniwae, how's ur sis?
Happy Kid: .....
Angel: sorry to haf mentioned her.
Happy Kid: nvm. it's okay. i've started speaking to her. doc sae that the more i speak to her, she may haf a chance of waking up!
Angel:That's great!
Happy Kid:yeah....
Angel:brb!

Jason checked his movie download. There was about 30mb left. It should probably take him about another an hour or so. While unpacking his bag, a sudden thought struck his head.

10.15pm

The conversation toolbar flashed. Jason who was in the midst of doing his PW report stopped doing it and resumed the conversation.

Angel: Back!
Happy Kid: Woah! sure took u quite some time leh! bz angel huh? y helping other mortals in nid of help izzit?
Angel : haha! yeah! how u noe ah?
Happy Kid: erm...coz i'm on of em. eh..gimme more attention leh! this mortal requires more help
Angel : lol! okok la! wad u doin now anyway?
Happy Kid: stupid PW report. doing some project on birth rate of s'pore
Angel : i see! mine's about the trend of online chatting.
Happy Kid: ah! i c! so r u gonna interview me or smthg liddat?
Angel: haha! once i get the questions ready! =p
Happy Kid: n i'll do e same too! anyway, i've got some qns to ask u
Angel: yesh?
Happy Kid: i would like to noe more bout u. u've always seems to keep mum bout urself. i dun even noe wad sch ur from la. all i noe ur 18 and i haf a pic of you, but i dun noe who u r. u nvr told me who u were
Angel: aiyah, wad's e point of knowing. it's not like we'll meet up mah
Happy Kid: In the end, the angel must always reveal him or herself to his or her mortal mah! haha...u played tt game b4 right?
Angel: of coz! kk la. but first, tell me urs?
Happy Kid: I havent? kk...NJ.
Angel: ........

Jason stopped to wonder why Angel had suddenly stopped replying.

Angel: icic! i'm from nj too!
Happy Kid: kewl! same college! kaoz! we've known each other for so long, but we dunnoe we're in the same college. wait...gimme more surprises. ur y1 or y2?
Angel: y2.u?
Happy Kid: haha! same same!!! ur subject combi?
Angel: wah! erm...sci. s5. quite slack la
Happy Kid: o gosh! scarli ur sumone i noe! lol! i oso s5 la!
Angel: ok...this is realli coincidental!
Happy Kid: yah lor! anyway, what's your name?

The next thing Jason knew, Angel had went offline. "Was she being shy or what?",Jason thought. Nevermind. He had his report to do anyway.

10.25m

A sudden darkness enveloped the room. Yvonne nearly fell off her chair. The sudden blackness made her skip a heartbeat. She managed to grope for her handphone, and switched on the torchlight function. "Vonne, could u switch on the lights again?", her mother shouted. "Yes mom, on the way!", Yvonne replied. She finally found the circuit board. Remembering what her father had said before,she proceeded to bringing the power back to the house. Within seconds, the whole house lit up again. After closing the circuit board, she headed back to her room.

10.30pm

She felt irritated. She was just in the middle of a conversation with her friend when the power went off. Now she had to go back online again and continue the conversation. She did not know if her friend was still online. It was 10.30 anyway,and anybody could be asleep at this time. Getting access to her computer again, she logged into MSN messenger.

10.31pm

On Jason's computer screen, Angel appeared online. He was not aware of this though. He had fallen asleep. The tough training had drained him thoroughly, and staring at the computer while writing a boring report were ingredients to making him fall asleep. Nevertheless, the sound produced whenever someone came online woke him up. Opening his half closed eye lids, he saw someone appear online. But he was too tired to check who it was. "Some other day", Jason thought. Without hesitation, he closed all the remaining toolbars, and laid down on his bed.

"I was so close to knowing who she is", Jason thought. The fatigue was too much for him to bear. He gave in to it, and was soon in a deep slumber.

A Story

2005-07-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

Day 1

3.25pm

Jason's mind was a blank. As he recalled everything that happened the past two weeks, he did not know whether all these were real, or it was just, a bad nightmare. Time and time again, bad luck seem to have befallen on him. The most horrible events just came surfacing into his life.

"Why he thought? Why?"

He stared at his Mathematics paper. An "O7" was written on the cover page. He had expected himself not to do well in his exams. With all the events that had happened around him, even the once strong concentration was not able to help him. Looking at the exam paper did not make him feel better.

He felt horrible.

"Eh Jason! You all right ?", Yvonne shook his shoulder lightly. Her cheerful expression lifted Jason's spirits, but only a bit.

"Class's ended already! Aiyah, it's just a maths test, don't take it too seriously ok? Let's pack up and go out for lunch yeah?", asked Yvonne.

"Nah. Not today. Got lots of things to do. Anyway, i've got to go out with "her", you know?", Jason answered. "Oh "her" eh? Haha! I get it! ok! Then i'll just make a move first! See you around tomorrow! Hey girls wait up!". Yvonne rushed out of the classroom, calling out to her friends to wait for her.

The classroom was empty, but the tables and chairs were mess. Jason slouched back into his chair. He did not feel like going home. It only made him feel worse. He took out his handphone at looked at the time.

3.30pm

Without hesitation, he packed his bag and left the classroom.

5.00pm

Jason walked out of the Singapore General Hospital. Everyday, he prayed and hope that a miracle would happen. He felt as though he was the root cause of the accident. "If only i had taken the effort to call her, she wouldn't have rushed out of the house to find me. Jie, why did this have to happen to you?"

6.30pm

As he walked passed his parents in the living room, they totally ignored him. He could not blame them. Just then, his father started hurling vulgarities, scolding him for his daughter's plight. Jason ran into his room and shut the door. Sighing hard, he threw his bag on the floor and decided to go online to chat. Maybe that was a way to get things off his mind. Not long after he had signed into MSN messenger, a text conversation popped up.

Angel: Heyz!
Jason replied. Happy Kid:yo!
Angel: How's school today? Is everything better? How's your sister?
Happy Kid: It sux. Big time. got o7 for my maths. didn't make me feel better. sister's still in a coma. not sure when she's gonna wake up. i'm feeling absolutely horrible now. and now, something's worse happend.
Angel: o....so sorry to hear that. I'll pray for her ya? What worse could happen?
Happy Kid: I just broke up with Tiffy. She met me this morning. I knew something wasn't right at all...

Jason recalled of the scence this morning. The memories still flashed in his head. He looked back and saw that Angel was still typing the message.Finally it appeared.

Angel:Tot you both were going steady? how long? if my memory holds,3 years?
Happy Kid: 2 1/2 years. Like i said, i knew something wasn't right at all. The past few weeks, she had given me the cold shoulder. i was tinking "okie..i'm probably spending too much time on my CCA". But i realli had to! coz i've got e dumb nationals coming up. i've trained sooo hard for it, i can't possibly juz gif it all up right?

Angel:True..true. well, if ya dun wanna tok bout it, dun haf to.
Happy Kid: nevermind.just wanna let off some steam. so as i was saeing,i'd decided to give her a birthday present. i thought we could juz patch up or something like that. Who knew when i met her today, she jus said that it was all over. jus like that! and furthermore, she jus took the present and left. i was standing outside her classroom, like a total idiot.
Angel:.....
Happy Kid: Yup, everything's now gone. My gf juz broke up wif me for no good reason. My sis's in the hospital, and my parents hate me. And my results too! What worse could happen? i wonder what i've done wrong.
Angel: Well.....life can be pretty low at times, though i cant feel wad ur feelin right now. but realli sympatize wif you lor. Anyway....

The online conversation continued. As Jason chatted with her, he felt much better. He did not have the slightest idea that the online friend he made three years ago, Angel, would turn out to be such a good friend. Not only did she make him feel better, she had even helped him through his darkest times. Just a month ago, he managed to catch a glimpse of her.It was totally conincidental. He remembered exchanging pictures with her online. Her picture had many other girls inside, and she never told him how she looked like, always saying that she looked very "ugly". Nevertheless, while he was shopping at Takashimaya with Tiffany, he had caught a glimpse of someone who looked very familiar. Someone who's face seemed to have appeared somewhere. However, before he could catch a second glimpse of her, she had disappeared into the crowd.

"Who is she?", Jason wondered.

2 wks

2005-06-17T23:54:00.000-07:00

aint sure wen's e last time since i updated my blog.

aniwae, last week was kinda hectic in late week n weekend..had absolutely no time to do my own stuff or studying. heh! fri had theory lesson..n den had to go..yes...can u believe it..manicure. kk...not tt im a gay or wadsoever, but it was solely for the foto shoot..shall go into tt later.quite comfy ...manicure im referring..but e slightly painful part is wen dey remove those skin beside ur nails..not tt dead skin..but those along the sides of ur nails..scrap em away. haha..aniwae, after e manicure, nails were quite shiny(no longer now..a week leh!)

aniwae, sat was othello inter-college comp! urgh! NJ othello section was SOOO close to winning a 3rd for e college! yesh! we were onli 1/2 a point away from CJ! we were like so...kek lor. aniwae, i won 5/10 games in total..not bad liao. i tot i would onli win 1, but far exceeded expectations. value addedness. heh! Ji Sin was e best for NJ lor! he won 7/10 games! n guess wad, he BEAT the top seed leh!! kaoz!! his last game, he actually beat her, but aniwae, we didn't manage to win, coz not enuff points from everyone else. Nevertheless, we were all satisfied wif our performance. Considering e lack of trainings tt we haf, it's quite a feat aniwae.

After e comp, rushed over to Estique(@ Pacific Plaza) to haf my $40 haircut. ex la..but worthwhile, considering e service dey gave. was my stylist who recommended me too neway.

Sundae = foto shoot! n yes..it was a WHOLE DAY AFFAIR. i was utterly drained i tell u...cant imagine life being a model. haha..u may tink standing to take pics r ez...trust me, it's a tough job. esp, wen dey one sooo many diff type of poses in diff outfits, positions...it was darn tiring. i had to haf my lunch @ around 1.5 hrs after my breakfast...haha..i was like soooo darn full la. but it was realli tiring, but nevertheless, quite fun. sometimes, wen i was realli tired, i would juz stone while dey took e pics, n tt usually turns out to b quite a nice shot sometimes. Photographer, Caroline was a realli nice lady. den there was josh as e helper..haha..same age as me. cool lad man! so it was e whole dae, first off @ e studio(which was large i tell u..abt 3 TC block classrooms;had a bar inside too), after which headed to my place to continue. everything took abt 12 hrs...ended @ 10pm. drained i tell u. aniwae, make up wasn't tt diff to wash off...didn't haf such heavy make up aniwae, juz some touch up.

Caroline told me tt my skin was not bad already. she's seen models wif even worse skin den me lor! haha..not tt my skin is perfect, i would sae, but juz tt i was surprised she said tt. but aniwae, lotsa things now r DI(short for Digital Imaging). haha..no one has PERFECT skin. ;) Quote from her " What the pple dun see, they dun noe". True huh? ;) but hey, we must strive to get tt flawless skin mah, right?

aniwae,i've been so lagged in studying..im so screwed. so spent e week mugging n prac my guts out(well, not realli la). played quite a bit, esp KOTOR(someone save me from this Star Wars Frenzy).

So glad Eric's back. havent seen him in a yr. aniwae, went wif ym n yc wif eric's mom to receive him @ e airport. after a warm reunion, headed bac to his place to haf lunch, where we kinda caught up wif old times. had to leave @ around 3.30, coz had some mock dress up again @ 5pm(make alterations to e suit). aniwae, tot me, eric n yc could catch up on fri, but eric had to haf some lunch, so had to cancel. wunt b seeing him till after CTs. yeah..quite a short reunion..but no choice. yc has comp on sat n sun, den nxt week muz realli study my guts out. Aniwae, Eric's also goin bac to Jakarta to visit his grandparents on 22nd, so yep. kinda disappointed, but heck la neway

im so pissed now, so tt's y im blogging. yeah..ytd i managed to repair e player 2 port of my ps2. sooooo damn happy! den guess wad! my player 1 port gave way todae! OF ALL TIMES, TODAE! WHAT THE HECK!!! even my player 2 port is down todae!!! AGAIN!! yeah..a sudden burst of euphoria, only to b destroyed again, leading to some sense of deep disappointment. how sian can tt go!!! urgh!! nid some1 to help me wif repairs. well. good thing is, i wunt b playing it..so can conc on my studies again.

aniwae, let's hope some of tis bad luck passes me by soon. i've got a gut feeling..dunnoe whether it'll b manifest itself..but guess it'll onli b awhile!

what else do i haf to pen?

Think tt's all!

Anyway peeps, i've gotta confirm e number of pple comin to my recital this august ASAP, so if ya could pop me a reply soon, it would b greatly appreciated.
Each tix cost $20. All proceeds will go to charity, so do try to show ya support for me yeah? i've realli worked hard, so ur presence would b greatly appreciated ya!

Venue: Alliance Francaise (sarkies road)
Date: 6th and 7th Aug. 6th Aug:8pm, 7th Aug: 4pm

tt's all i guess. there's also a surprise for all if ya come, but i guess i aint sayin it on mi blog neway. ok, enjoy ur holidays folks!

God Bless!

Holidays!

2005-05-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

o yesh! the Holidays have started!!

okie..let's c..do u count sat as the start of the holiday too? haha..ok..wadeva e case, i've truely been slackin around these past couple of daes. Sat slack out wif yc. todae mondae, played MGS 3 e whole dae la..kaoz..slack until liddat...better rmb bout e CT2. gosh! aniwae, did some practicing..fingers not responding to me todae..dunnoe y. haha..rusty i guess.

aniwae, this hols gonna b lotsa prep for the recital in aug. gosh! i'm gonna b bz larhz. den got med check..cant forget! and how can i 4get, my BEST BUDDY ERIC!!!!!! he's coming BACK!!! FINALLY!!! cant wait bro!! haha..den can haf our game of Risk! lol!

geezer..tt's all! time for me to get bac to some stealth action in MGS3! meanwhile pple, enjoy ur holidaes pple! *salutez*

Star Wars Episode III

2005-05-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

yesh...after abt a week or so, i managed to catch e show!

wanted to watch it on opening dae, but pple either not free or not interested! bah!

aniwae, i tink e 3rd Episode is definitely the best prequel out of the 3. i tink it realli brought the Star Wars chapter to a close. heh..ever since i was a kid, i've been following e whole series, so yeah, juz gotta watch it. it's saddening e protaganist turns bad in the end(Anakin). somehow, to some extent , juz gotta sympatise that fella. but i guess it's his inability to let go which eventually caused him to turn to the dark side.

Sometimes, we've juz gotta let go of things, n not hold on too tightly to them.

Anyway, got some guest appearances, like Chewbacca! haha! tt furry hairball. When i 1st spotted him wen they zoomed into his homeplanet, i tot it wasn't him.But b4 Yoda left he planet, he said something like " i will miss u chewbacca. take care" (something liddat la). haha..my 6th sense was correct. Den of coz, there was the birth of Leia and Luke Skywalker, both who would be very pivotal in the downfall of the empire and the rebuilding of the New Republic. heh..but tt's many many many years after episode III. E surprising part was Yoda teaching Obi Wan how to contact his ex-mentor Qui Gon. Sadly, dey didn't realli show a clip of him communicating wif his mentor, but nvm.

Nevertheless, the concluding scene really signified HOPE. All in all, this episode really rocked! Kudos to George Lucas and his team for FINALLY bringing some justice back to the Star Wars series and bringing back all the excitement! =)

Geesh! aniwae, lazee to tok bout mondae outing. prob blog bout it some time soon. gotta go n do Maths and phy tut! arghh!!!!

College Day!

2005-05-14T22:01:00.000-07:00

yup! Todae was college day!

Din really do much todae, juz practice n practice @ home. Went to church in the afternoon. while on the way bac, i saw Mr Menon! o gosh lor! haha! Din realli tok to him though

all e furniture in e guest's room been removed lor...so sian. now wenever i play e piano, dere's lotsa echo..darn..not good. my parents r buying furniture real soon for e room, to accomodate e piano

besides tt, i also lost my damn phone la this week! darn thief stole my fone, n took some cash from my wallet.fortunately, i didn't lose any very very important things from my wallet(e.g IC) now haf to use some temp line. aniwae folks, i'll b reactivating my line soon, so no worries. do drop me a msg to tell me who u r so tt i can store e number.

Anyway, juz got bac from College Day. Concert was quite entertaining. Hung out wif yc n matt during e interval to makan here n dere. v full sia! anyway, good job to all who made college day a success!

Love can really be very complicated wen ya think of it. Was listening to Liebestraum by Liszt(it's a very famous piece, most peeps wunt noe e title, but once u listen to e tune, u'll b saying "orh!"). It brought bac many memories, memories of falling in love again. haha..dunnoe y, especially wenever i listen to the ending of the piece, it sounds sooo......sad....yet, with a strong emotion of love, that u've gotta treasure those around u, no matter how often u see them. lol...i'm not sure how to explain it. but once thing's for sure, it's definitely bout Love.

haha..y am i toking bout this? a feeling of nostalgia? or juz thinking bout her?

anyway, tt's all folks! cya n take care! for all NJcians out dere, enjoy e monday holidae! Rock on Brudders n Sistas!

Some thoughts

2005-05-09T17:30:00.000-07:00

Juz came back home after watching Kingdom of Heaven wif YC n Matt. Really a grreat show man! Bascially,the battle scenes were grand and awesome , and other stuff(tt i'm kinda lazee to bring up)were not bad. haha...for those who havent watched it, go catch it!

ooO! i oso cant wait for Star Wars Episode III to come out! i'm quite a fanatic wen it comes to e darn series! haha! *eric! u wanna watch once ur bac or not?*

Anyway,Kingdom of Heaven did bring up some issues tt came up to my head. I mean, the storyline basically revolves around the Fall of Jerusalem. But many times i ask myself, why do Men fight for such causes? As in, which religion promotes death, violence and destruction? Nowdays, soo many terrorists say they "die bcoz it's God's Will". But many of times, this seems to be in conflict with our religion. It's quite ironically and paradoxical.

But one thing tt kinda struck me was that there was a knight(cant rmb his name), who wore a blue outfit, b4 he left Jerusalem(coz he knew it was gonna fall anyway), he told Orlando Bloom, that he originally had a strong believe that he was defending the City becoz it was God's Will, but in the end, he realised that many many times, Men fight juz to protect their own property and wealth. I'm not saying we let other pple steal or take what rightfully belongs to us, but what i'm saying in context, is that Men bcome sooo possessive with what they have, they use the excuse that it's God's Will, that they fight for a certain cause.

I mean, let's juz face it, sometimes in our life, we just use the excuse that "God made it this way" to cover up some sins that we know we committed, but do not admit. Erm...maybe after i said this many will say i'm totally wrong. I hope that readers out there wont misinterpret me for what i'm saying. But anyway, like i said, it's juz a thought i wanted to pen out, so i'm sure that there's much room for debate. Bottomline is this though ; I dun doubt God's Will.

But at the end of the day, the line bout "Taking up arms to protect those who are unable to fight and protect themselves", that's what true heroism is, n i feel that the protaganist has really exhibited this trait.

ok lar, enough of talking bout this. Had wanted to announce smthg to e class, but todae's a 1/2 day, so not possible. hmm...Wednesday mayb huh? ;)

Signing off! God Bless ya all!

What makes life beautiful?

2005-05-04T19:16:00.000-07:00

What makes life beautiful?

A message from YC struck me real hard, and i want to share it with all. "I know, You cant force yourself to feel better. You cant fight away the negative feelings. You cant expect everything to go smoothly. You are human. Having all these imperfections is what Makes Life Beautiful. Accept Life as it is. The only thing you should do is Love. "

I know, some things dun make sense. But probably the lines b4 the line bout imperfections making our life beautiful , can probably be smthg refreshing.

Juz came bac from CCA. Felt quite good, esp since i beat Chow in a game of othello..after sooo mani games. haha...aniwae, tt's all. hmm...i've got a surprise up my sleeve...dunnoe whether to call it a surprise...but im sure they'll appreciate. Who's "they"? "They" are a bunch of pple very close to me! heh! okok! enuff liaoz! TC peeps!

2005-05-01T04:54:00.000-07:00

deep down, there's alot of hatred within me, i haf no idea y.

the thought sickens me....

do i realli know who i am?

i cant accept myself for who i am...

i'm confused.

what's the meaning of life?

someone close to me has now become someone i hate

i cant help but wonder why im so sensitive...im nvr @ ease with myself

i'm deeply tortured by this negative side of me tt is consuming me....i'm losing my sanity...

someone , plz help me

someone, plz listen to me

i'm deeply troubled.

God, plz help me.

2005-04-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

Not sure of a title for e entry..hm..

it's been bout a week since i updated. aniwae, i decided to update, so as to not fall asleep on a fridae nite. yep..it's been some time since i spent fridae nitez..always had to end up sleeping early coz after e lack of slp during e weekdaez

tis week's been pretty hectic abit. had to run around doing things i suppose..yep.
aniwae, congrats to my junior for getting in council. =)

something to share, b4 i end this entry. A lot of times in our lives, we are faced with negative emotions, emotions that arise because we think about "why people have this, while i dun", thoughts that arise because we think too much bout our own welfare, for our own reason, in all, about ourself. Because of this neverending "self", u feel the world is very unfair to u.

However, if we learn to let go, and not juz look at ourself as the only person on this universe, life becomes more wonderful. We learn to have a more opened heart, learn to accept why things happen a certain manner. Most importantly, we learn to appreciate whatever we have.

Hmm..mayb im not making too much sense, but anyway,if ya all could kinda read btw e lines, it would make abit more sense. I'm still trying to find a link btw what i written juz now. haha...nvm. anyway, peeps, enjoy ur weekend!

Do drop a tag on my tagboard ya! wanna hear some replies. thx=)

Endorphins

2005-04-21T05:53:00.000-07:00

sheesh..did i spell tt hormone name correctly? erm..bio peeps, plz correct me anyway!

aniwae, it's e FEEL good hormone, tt realli boost my morale lotsa times. dunnoe...e past week hasn't been tt good..lotsa ups n downs, esp during e weekends. sigh~ but aniwae, gotta get over it mah!

geesh..took NAFA, n yesh..i screwed it up totally..TOTALLY! i screwed up ALL my strongest items, esp my 2.4km run...i feel soooo disappointed la...bcoz of 2.4, i lost my gold! im like (wad the!) lotsa pple round me were like (wad the!) also! sigh! muz pia again lor! i nvr did SOOOO badly in 2.4 in my whole JC life! urgh...

mayb todae was realli a bad dae, many bad omens occurred..it's so freaky lor. tt's my napfa screwed..=p

nthg much happening this week..yeah..y m i blogging on a thurs? coz dun feel like doing nething for now, so juz blog. Reading e book "The Purpose Driven Life". It's realli an enriching book lor. n Yesh...i'm gonna follow e book(if ya would call it) as mentioned for all 40 days. I'm determined, n i'll definitely do it. For God always! =)

gosh...im so lagged behind in everything too, work, piano etc. how? guess haf to spend e whole weekends slugging it out. no choice man!

Like wad bugs bunny saez " That's All Folks!" =)

I'm Back again!

2005-04-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

haha! helloz bloggie n peeps!

yesh..i havent blogged in ages. Everyone else too, i checked out Brent's last blog, oso quite long ago, but i tink mine's much rustier.
anyway, nthg better to do, so decided to blog. where shall i start?
o ya, went down to chi dance SYF(1st time going for such events), n dey won Gold with Honours. yeah...den dere was all e cheering..tt happy n cheerful atmosphere(to put it simply). good works peeps anyway, now it's up to e musical grps in my klass to strive for gold wif honours(so go for it wil,yue yiao, dawn,mabel,crystal,jun hao & si da!) Dun feel stressed out peeps eh!
anyway, juz came back from theory lesson. truely enlightening eh! n den had facial tis morning...shiok lor..though quite painful(coz remove those pimples...geezer). anyway, i feel my face's been exposed..haha...so now muz protect.
ok short, n simple ya! tt's all! tc peeps n God Bless!

heyz! i'll try my best to go down for ur performance k? dun feel so stressed out k! Go for it! I''ll always be dere to support ya! =)

Thank You God for giving me the strength to carry on another week and helping me to conquer with my inner demons. Thank You Mother Mary for helping me intercede too! Without your kind intercession, all these would not have been possible. Thank You Both again! Amen.

End of CT 1

2005-03-23T21:40:00.000-08:00

yup! there goes CT1! Bet lots of pple r gonna go home todae n blog "hurray! it's e end of e CTs". Yup..one heck of a CT no doubt! Oso wanna drop my econs fast...tt econs department better not delay lor..i've made a fiasco out of e econs paper..so tt shuld prove a point. but seriously, i didn't study @ all, so it made no diff anyway.

anyway, i've finally made a decision. yeah..after soooo many daes of endless arguments, quarrels, n lots of thinking, i've made a decision. bet some of ya muz b tinking "what decision?" It's juz regarding bout e date of my recital. Had to make some changes, but juz had to reconsider alot of other facts n had to discuss(n yes, quarrel) over the recital. n yeah...i've got lots from em..but o well.

Seriously, i wasn't in the right state of mind to even take my CT in e 1st place. Wen i took GP on mondae(which i tink i did v v badly), i wasn't even concentrating..urgh. But o well, i juz continued praying,n made constant careful planning, b4 i changed e date. Seriously, im feeling very drained out after these past few daes.

Todae, decided not to stick wif e class after CT. haha..dun wanna waste my time, so i went home to settle things tt i had put aside for the past 3 daes.

Time to get down to work. Anyway, peeps enjoy e rest of e ..erm..holiday! haha! tc n ardios!

Thank you Lord for guiding me all this while. Without your proper guidance, and helping me with my decision, all would not have happened without your help. Again, I Thank You!

Be Yourself
Often we want to be somewhere other than where we are, or even to be someone other thatn who we are. We tend to compare ourselves constantly with others and wonder why we are not as rich, as intelligent, as simple, as generous or as saintly as they are. Such comparisons make us feel guilty, ashamed or jealous. It is very important to realise that our vocation is hidden where we are and who we are. We are unique humans beings, each with a call to realise in life what nobody else can, and to realise it in the concrete context of the here and now.

We will never find our vocations by trying to figure out whether we are better or worse than others. We are good enough to do what we are called to do. Be Yourself! =)

22nd March

2005-03-22T17:41:00.000-08:00

hmm..nthg much todae. Anyway, juz another story for ya peeps out dere! Enjoy!
s12! juz one more dae! All e way! =)

Enough Light for the Next Step
Often we want to be able to see into the future. We say,"How will next year be for me? Where will I be five or ten years from now? " There are no answers to these questions. Mostly we have just enough light to see the next step: what we have to do in the coming hour, or the following day. The art of living is to enjoy what we can see and not complain about what remains in the dark. When we are able to take the next step with the trust that we will have enough light for the step that follows, we can walk through life with joy and be surprised at how far we go. Let's rejoice in the little light we carry and not ask for the great beam that would take all shadows away.

I'm Back! =)

2005-03-21T19:07:00.000-08:00

o gosh! it's bout a month since i've blogged! okk..i noe i shuldn't b blogging now, esp since it's still e CT period..but wad e heck. haha!

Anyway,took phy n gp 2dae..phy was "exceptionally easy" ( can u spot e sarcasm?). GP was worse..urgh..i might b able to pull thru was both papers. section b was ok fer phy..but i shan't elaborate further.

How's hols for everyone neway? mine was juz spent studying n practising, though i did haf quite an enjoyable fri(thanks! u noe whu u r =) realli made my dae!) . Met up wif yc on e previous fri to catch up bout old time stuff. haha..again we crapped, but dere was juz so much to discuss. anywae, spent much of e hols tinking n planning out stuff, esp to e big recital im gonna haf soon. o well..so much to do, so little time! (haha..so wad m i doing here blogging? =p)

Anyway, enuff of blogging, gotta get bac to studying maths n chem! argh..still got 4 part harmony work to do!!!

To all s12ians, Jia You for CTs! Dun stop! Juz keep going n press on! =)

O ya, i'll most probably be adding some enlightening quote from this book of mine every few days!Hope it will inspire each and everyone of ya out there eh ;) Enjoy the one for todae! =)

The Gift of Friendship
Friendship is one of the greatest gifts a human being can receive. It is a bond beyond common goals, common interests, or common histories. It is a bond stronger than sexual union can create, deeper than a shared fate can solidify, and can be even more intimate than the bonds of marriage or community. Friendship is being with the other in joy and sorrow, even when we cannont increase the joy or decrease the sorrow. It is a unity of souls that gives nobility and sincerity to love. Friendship makes all of life shine brightly. Blessed are those who lay down their lives for their friends.

They Came, I Fought, I Conquered

2005-02-27T09:09:00.000-08:00

" He looked up into the sky, a surge of negative emotions going through him. He wondered when all this was going to end. Above him, the dark clouds hovered,creating a very depressed atmosphere all around everyone. It was like a menace to all. He thought to himself,"when is it going to rain? ". He looked back at the green pastures that laid before him, realizing that even the vibrant green that the grass once had, was not as vibrant as ever. The dark clouds had blocked off all source of light.He thought to himself " Like the saying goes,"When it rains, it pours" "

"Just then, he felt a strong gust of wind. The grass ruffled under his feet. He looked up at the sky, and saw the dark clouds slowly shifting, moving away. After some time, a small beam of light managed to shine through. Suddenly, he felt revitalized, not only by the cool breeze, but also by the sight of that small beam of light. The negative emotions within him suddenly dissipated. He felt much better. Gradually, the dark clouds were starting to disperse. Suddenly, he felt small drops of water raining down on him. It was drizzling, but he did not feel depressed at all. Over time, the dark clouds gradually disappeared, and the small beam of light, had become much stronger in intensity. He sat down on the grass, slowly enjoying the change in atmosphere. Gradually, the whole place became brighter, not as depressed as before. Even the grass was starting to sway with more enthusiasm and energy. "

"Just then, it stopped drizzling. Above him, the sun shone with an immense brightness, but he liked it. "It's been some time since i enjoyed such brightness;Let me enjoy it", he thought to himself, a surge of inner strength coming back to him. Within him, all thoughts of negative emotions had vanished. Although he knew that these negative emotions would come back some other time, his inner self had hardened."

"He had Grown Stronger!"

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It's been a very very long time since i've updated my blog. Heh. i had actually wanted to make it abt a month since i'd updated my blog, but i kinda got sick and tired of leaving my blog empty. heh!

Anyway, thanks to all those who had tagged my blog even though the blog was very stagnant!

So, wad's with the story up there? Well, i'd thought it pretty much summarizes how i felt for this past one month. So much has been going through my life, but i just don't wanna write everything down. I mean, why make an entry so depressing? Whatever emotions that i've wanted to pour out, i've already done it. (thanks to all those who were willing to hear me out)

What actually spurred me to write this entry was the birthday card that the class had given me. Words cannot describe the Encouragement i received upon reading the card a 2nd time round! =) Thanks s12!

Thanks to yc for willing to take time to hear me out. Guess after Eric left, i'd only had yc and fel to confide in.

Sometimes in life, it's better not to think too much about small events. These events are just events that pass by your life, and you're not supposed to treat them so seriously. If u do, u're just creating more problems for yourself. Also, focus on the BIG, and REALLY IMPORTANT tasks at hand, and not bother yourself with small trivial matters. Don't look back at past events. Life becomes more meaningful, as you wake up each day, knowing that you have something to do.

=Always Move On=

It's because of all these negative emotions, that it's affecting my music. haha..i'd always thought that it would help my music playing. Upon realization, i've been wrong all along. One must know how to balance out.

Anyway, i'd told myself that i will not allow my emotions to get the better out of me.

=Stay Happy Always=

haha..sounds kinda corny. But nevertheless, Let us strive to be more Optimistic about Life. Life is Short, so take it Easy! ^_^

=As long as your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme=

=I would like to thank God, His Son, and Mother Mary for guiding me through this toughest of times. Without Your guidance, i might not have been able to make it past this one month. Again, I Thank You for the strength that You'll have given me this past month.=

"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on the wings like eagles." Isaiah 40:31

Helloz to all!

2005-02-25T03:13:00.000-08:00

3 weeks since i updated my blog! Longest time so far! heh! havent been realli finding e time to really update my blog. yeah...lotsa things been going thru my mind..geesh. Anyway, this is juz a trial post...heh. To all my juniors out dere, Good Luck for ur Os! =)

february!

2005-02-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

Finally! it's feb again! e month of my bdae! yeah...dun ya juz LUV it peeps?! haha..e month of my zodiac sign...okok..i'd better stop, coz all tis euphoria might drive me(n u) nuts! haha!

Anyway, this week wasn't such a big hoo ha as usual. Recording was crazee. recorded till 3am, got home n slpt abt 4am. i tell u, i was working non stop all dae, for 12 hrs, n wen i reached home, i was half dead. If it wasn't for God kind guidance, i might not haf been able to pull thru. so aniway, i slept for 2 hrs, b4 headed to sch for SV. The feeling wen i woke up, was tt i was brain dead..really! i juz couldn't think abt anything, so i was almost like a zombie. Sometimes, words juz slipped out while tokin to my frends, n i wasn't aware wad i was saeing. tt's y CM i was stoning! By the way, i would like to thank Mabel n Dawn for helping me wif e info n minutes. Knew i could count on ya both! thanks again* So anyway, left sch @ 5pm, n slpt @ 8pm. yeah..recuperate slp loss...heh..i tink tt's e most significant event for e week for now

Now, im wondering wad i learnt tis week. i was surprised fel got bac her hp,n she msg me! haha..naughty hor! Well, my interest in music rekindled again tis week, which was good. finally, had something to look fwd to, new repertoire! but gotta finish e current ones. some pieces were realli interesting, like e Schumann Carnaval! and the Chopin Heroic Polonaise, or Liszt Funerailles(i noe..it sounds like funeral....it is). Anyway, i shant ponder too much bout it, b4 it becomes very long n boring.

Well, i learnt alot during worship todae, abt the Lord being wif us, no matter how gloomy things are. Ya, it's true tt sometimes we dunnoe, or feel we're alone, and everything seems to be crumbling. But im sure the Lord put us thru trials so tt we become stronger pple. and tt's e thing tt motivates me all the way, especially thru this very tough times.

Anyway, the class t-shirt suddenly struck me again. i might nid to discuss wif ros bout it, to see whether we're realli going ahead wif it...so far i've received positive feedback from e klass, so ya, im gonna push for tt idea.

Ideas juz flow thru me, n disappear unknowingly. After playing thru the Carnaval, i was tinking of writing a piece; of coz tt's kinda crazee, considering i dun haf e basics for composing, but im pushing forward to get it written. haha..some maybe wondering, where in the world am i getting my inspiration from? 24 pple,all with different and interesting personalities, how's tt for a start? well, it includes me, which makes it 24.the class been quite an inspiration for me to kick start the idea, in fact, i've had this idea within me for a very long time, juz didn't noe how to express it. prob composing's e best? haha! ideas ideas!

okie, tt's all for blogging! tc peeps n enjoy ur week again!

Heyz!

2005-01-29T08:00:00.000-08:00

It's 12am+

Ya noe..i sumtimes wonder wad's wrong wif me these past couple of daes. izzit due to my lack of slp or exercise? i've been feelin v darn tired..burned out if ya wan me to b exact. Which is y i took a dae off on thurs from usual piano lesson...coz im so tired. esp on mondae..i felt burnt out, n tues it got worse. Well, anywae, coz of tis, i slpt much much more fri nite..abt 12 hrs to b exact..to recuperate my slp loss e whole week.

anywae, forgot to attend trng on mon..darn. tues was prep for big dae. Wed wasn't too nice a dae..it sucked quite badly...but o well, dun wanna tok bout it. haha..played e 9 card guessing game wif my juniors...heh..after e outing on fri, i guess dey figured it out liao..but i'll go to e outing later. thurs was an okay dae la...was kinda shacked on wed, so i took a long rest on thurs.

heh..these past couple of daes been a scadalous week...so mani rumours spreading around bout e Angel Moral thingie...heh..n oso bout who's holding monopoly tt crap. Though i've been tryin to figure out who's my angel.i guess it's a guy la...my a mortal hasn't replied yet..but o well, wif such little effort put it, im not surprised if she didn't reply. Anywae, whoever's my angel, he/she sure did a darn fine job...n im feelin bad bout it. haha..time to atone for my sins

fri was road run, n so i ran..juz for kicks. sucked in it aniwae. havent prac running for almost 6 months, so wad could i expect. though during PE i was astonished i could run 11mins for 2.4km...couldn't believe it. on my last 300 metres, got cheered on by klassmatez, n tt realli motivated me(no..im not being sacarstic! thanks peeps!) Though i din do well, im still quite impressed wif myself for being able to last all e way n having e strength n determination. Thank God n Mother Mary for guiding me thru e road run too. After road run, went out wif junior klass for lunch @ Fish & Co. During e journey, had e usual scandalous stuff again. i was kinda shagged out, so decided to b quiet for some time. Shaun got 33rd lor...e onli guy to get top50. damn impressive, but his knee was givin him trouble. *bro! get better soon man!*

heh..lunch was hilarious. had a nice chat wif e juniors, n yesh..fabian was a pig..he kept ordering fries n fries n fries...in e end, dey gave him a BIGGER bowl of ketchup. It looked so farny lor...a few other juniors came around later, sida n shaun came later too...haha,e crescent gals,fabian, me n JS were observing reuben(if i spelt his name correctly),and e other gals on e other side of e table...n i tell u, it was hilarious! it looked like as though he was e emperor, picking food here n dere, toking left n right,entertaning e gals, n as though e gals were his concubines, n den dere was wil n jeremy beside, n dey were e ...erm...haha. shant wanna sae. but if u were dere,n looked, it looked damn farny. =) After tt we played e EXOTHERMIC REACTION GAME. yeah!!! haha...Joanne got tricked my me lor! Den nxt was Aha...i was tinking..o geezer..everyone noes, but e nxt thing i knew, she turned around n ask " har? What exothermic reaction?" heh! but tis time around, cerise was in e blast radius too, n she oso ganna...erm...if im not wrong, zheng yu oso ganna....sorry juniors! din noe e 2nd one's blast radius was so large. Aniwae, i feel abit bad abt playing tt darn prank lor..so sorry for all e inconvenience caused..but hey..most importantly, dun feel too offended bout it n stay cheerful always!

After which, headed to youth park to tok kok. ALL e seniors left xcept for me. one of e main reason y i stayed was to discuss abit bout e CM thing on 8th Feb..which is v impt. Of coz, everyone dreaded was i was gonna sae, but o well,dey got more serious, after i told em who e VVIPs were. yep..tot it was JS idea to discuss on fri, but guess din discuss much. Den we played mafia. erm...dey weren't too enthu intially, but after a 1 or 2 rounds, dey reali realli got enthu bout it. of coz, dere were e zany accusations, e clueless detectives, e sly mafias trying to disguise as detectives n accuse innocent townsfolks, and last BUT not LEAST, e SUPER EXTREMELY hum ji, kia si(scared die) HEALER! haha..dey realli got enthu bout it. i was tinking dey were getting tired of e game after abt 2 rounds, nxt thing i knew, dey were like "again! new round!" Joanne, Yin Har, n even Wai Leng oso volunteered to bcome narrator lor. haha..Yin Har quite blur blur onez, but cant blame her la...aniwae, she first time narrator. so i juz helped her out as narrator. I did play one round, but tt was damn sucky lor..i was mafia, den i accuse Sui Leng, nxt thign i knew, nxt round i ganna accused liaoz. den i was out..=p all out to sabo me right. haha..joanne always first few to get accused one..damn farny. den e rest of e rounds, i was narrating or aiding e juniors who narrated...After e last match, e juniors gave lotsa positive feedback bout e game. I initially tot tt dey dreaded e game, but after asking em, dey sae dey liked it coz dey finally understood wad was going on...den i was like "true true!" but coming bac to tt,im sure e OGLs did intro e game well to em, y didn't dey like it bac den? pretty strange....but after e final, n by far, one of e farniest round, haikel, zheng yu n cerise had to zao. i tagged along n went home too.

Reached home feeling extremely tired! after reading a few pages of Deception Point by Dan Brown(author of The Da Vinci Code), i fell asleep..it was around 8pm. heh!

Went to extend my passport on sat. kaoz...i wanted to prac my piano in e morning, but my mom realized tt my passport had expired, so i immediately went out n extended it. Heard NJ doens't allow peeps to take leave on CNY eve..tis is horrible lor! THose foreigners who wan to go bac, dey cant go bac lor. not tt im complaning la..but abit la. After which, went to church for devotion in e morning...e story todae was smthg abt moving ahead wif times, n expecting e unexpected in life...smthg liddat..not tt i can recall tt much, coz i didn't realli understand was e priest was saeing...as in, e meaning behind it. Going to church to pray has realli lifted my spirits..yup..it's one of e ways in which i can kinda get Closer to God n Mother Mary.
This past week, i've had a feeling of voidness and emptiness, as though something was missing, n as though i've been losing direction in life. But wif all tt praying n everything, it's made me feel better. Again, i would like to thank God and Mary for wadever They have done for me.

O well, it's 12.41am already. time to slp..yep. gotta shop todae too! nitez pple n haf a grrreat week ahead!

sundae, jan 23rd

2005-01-22T08:31:00.000-08:00

it's 12.38am

y am i blogging so late? mayb to let out some steam i guess. but inconveniences can b quite annoying sometimes,esp since i nid to plan, n kinda anticipate some stuff. but aniwae, tt's besides e point.

Anywae, this week's been bz as usual. had recordings on mon n wednesdae. yup...mondae's recording was a mind blowing one...but it was e best one. after e session, i felt extremely enlightened..it was a very...nice feeling. quite diff to describe in words. nxt, recorded e nocturne on wed, which was oso quite enriching. though wasn't like tt on mondae. but i realized e impt thing in playing chopin's pieces. one muz learn to haf e correct sound, n clarity. this legend isn't like Liszt. He doesn't show off his virtuousity on e surface..e difficulty in more innate. which makes his pieces equally difficult. But nevertheless, these are 2 legends on 2 different planes. so we cant juz compare who's better.

okie..enuff of piano. Sch's quite okay tis week. juz tt had to do trial road run, which is quite boring in some sense. havent been running often, so stamina sux. tt's besides e point anywae. i realized, i've been so bz, i dun even haf time to do my hmwk. ya..no time to do work. im like..o geezer. so aniwae, spent this whole weekend studying. got kinda screwed by my tutors for not doing my work, so tis coming week, i'll prove em wrong. heh!

b4 i start, how was Hari Raya Puasa for all? mine was quite fun. SV outing in e morning. finally, knew everyone's names...well...erm...i may haf forgotten one or 2, but dey're from IP. yr 2s, i definitely remembered all! aniwae, played Taboo den had some sharing session. After which, went out makan wif em. friendly crowd. aniwae, thanks for e outing. though small but simple, but it was quite enriching, in some sense. After which, wanted to go shopping. Joel actually wanted to watch Phantom of e Opera..but i declined. sorry bro. aniwae, called up yc, but he wasn't free...argh. decided not to shop, so headed bac home. abit of a wasted trip, but i'd rather shop wif my cousins or yc.

sat spent doing work..catching up. aniwae, im deciding of taking up Bible Studies wif my cousins. but im afraid my parents might b against it. i dun realli intend to tell my dad bout it, coz he's quite against christianity...my mom's a catholic, so sometimes he goes against her wen it comes to religion. all these past few months, im trying to fake my way out, but i guess my dad will guess it sooner or later. aniwae, my mom might be against it in some sense, considering tt im soooooo bz,wif recordings n sch work. i can understand, but seriously, i find it MORE meaningful if i understood my religion more. anyway, all those meanings found in between e lines of e Bible are truely enlightening things and learning points, which i find them very applicable. But i'll find a way..i definitely Find A Way.

Anywae, tt's all for now. darn..gotta do NY shopping soon too! ~

Being Simple

2005-01-16T00:12:00.000-08:00

it has dawned upon me tt like wad i mentioned in my previous entry, being simple minded solves alot of probs...emotional problems sometimes.

anywae, tis week has been quite passive..nthg realli interesting happening. juz had 1 meeting for CM. yeah...NE rep has changed. guess JH got kinda stressed out, so JS took over. i can understand how JH felt, esp being picked on by SP all e time..too much. It's a good thing i got a week off from piano...i was realli feeling very very drained already. fortunately, dere's something which drives n motivates me everydae. Anywae, tis week was a getting bac week for s12. everyone finally got bac together in klass to catch up (in some sense). Oso, had lotsa admin stuff to handle. Fortunately, i have a very very(n yesh..i mean wad i write n sae) responsible klass rep to help me wif this. im glad she is, coz im soooooo bz wif piano n stuff, i realli sometimes let all these admin stuff slip past me. haha..she oso reminds me often bout it, so i dun forget too. *thank u!*

Mrs Cheng announced bout another outing for e J1s for CM. urgh...everyone's getting disgusted bout it...but no choice lor. luckily, JS very responsible. he's going all out to ensure everything's fine. again..another fine n responsible crew member on board e CM crew. haha!

anywae, enuff of sch stuff, time to talk abit more on personal stuff.

Back to wad i said above, it's better to haf a simple mind. life gets less complicated. y do i sae so? mayb reading my previous entry would help. Again, im faced wif many very tough decisions tt will ultimately affect my future n my family. yesh..it's my recital. dere's sooo much issues i haf to settle. sometimes, all these tough decisions can realli dampen my spirits. in klass, i may seem like e cheerful me, always talking joking...etc. tt's bcoz i wanna let it all out...but deep down inside, i noe i cant run away from my probs. i've gotta solve em. n i aint too happy bout it. Again, i would like to thank God for having such a wonderful klass. Dey r truely a great bunch of pple!

Love is complicated. My mom was chatting wif her sister(my aunt..like duh!). n dey tok abt teenager relationships. They mentioned this point abt teens like us, falling in love easily. it's soo true. everyone experiences tt, but each person reacts to it differently. for me...i haf a tuff time reacting to it. it affects me very deeply. yeah..im some1 who's very in touch wif my emotions..but pple dun realize it.
I've fallen in love b4, but this time, i'm falling in love with someone. n tt again, sickens me. no..not tt person, but bcoz i cant concentrate on wadever im doing. but i guess, tis tot will gradually disappear. Had better be...

Din haf much time to catch up wif buddy YC. anywae, he looks sooo much happier now. i glad he is. i guess he finally realized lotsa stuff, n he oso told tt to me. haha..i did mention it to him @ e end of 2003 of how he's changed over, but he didn't realize. guess wif all those tots gone, he's finally settled down to rethink bout it. he did wanna haf a chat wif me,but i couldn't find e time.Mayb i ought to sit down n oso gif some thoughts bout myself

aniwae, tt's enuff for now. all these ramblings r getting boring...juz wanted to let out some emotions...

9th of Jan

2005-01-09T19:25:00.000-08:00

hmm..i realized i've blogged too much, but there's a good reason y im blogging

todae's another dae, juz tt i went over to my grandad's place to haf lunch wif all my relatives. haha..reached dere e latest..coz e bus journey was darn long. Din go out for movie wif my cousin as originally planned...haha..coz dey had a cash deficit...haha..i'll learn tt phrase from now onwards. Anywae, my younger cuzzie oso didn't wanna watch e movie Aviator. haha..quite frankly, i also kinda didn't wanna watch movie. so aniwae, we juz tok n tok n tok. n of coz, i met my youngest cousin, Candice, who's like...17 yrs younger den me. haha..yeah..she was juz born last yr. but she's sooooo adorable! yeah..i rarely sae babies being adorable, but she's soooo cute lor. haha..she juz kept coming up to me, and she was very curious of me, n of coz, i did entertain her quite a bit!
dunnoe y..babies like biting n touching stuff...she bit some strap on my shorts lor...haha..luckily i told her not to. Quite obedient. den she was touching my specs n stuff...she's juz so adorable! =)

Aniwae, e more i write, e more i sound like a guy. yesh..guys dun usually write these kinda stuff...but y m i writing all these weird stuff?

Babies' innocence...dey're juz soooo innocent. unaware of wad's going on, n very curious to find out tis n that. in some ways, dey oso represent hope of a new generation. amidst all tt's happening, like e Tsunami disaster, we muz always look forward, n always hang on to Hope. Sometimes, in life, we juz haf to haf a simple mind. It's bcoz of all tt's happened over our life time, tt we start having a complicated mind, n think too much abt stuff, wen, it is actually damn simple. bcoz of having a complicated mind, it generates lotsa negative thoughts, esp those of paranoia, jealousy etc.

In some ways, let us be like babies. Sometimes in life, juz be simple. Dun tink complicated. Life would b much much easier! =-)

1st Week of School

2005-01-08T12:21:00.000-08:00

yup! Back to sch again!

Aniwae, i woke up darn late, n realized tt i would b late. Worse still, first dae of sch, dere wuld usually b a very very bad traffic jam! i was like...o gosh! but aniwae, most peeps were late. haah..tt was first

During e week had to settle mani admin matters wif ros, n had to do planning of fridae's CM wif jun hao. very hectic week, furthermore, i had to rush down to sch almost every dae for recordings, which usually ended around 12am. the one on thurs ended @ 1.30++am. heh...but keep in mind, i started late, so ended late. heh...i had dinner wif John everydae, n he was truely a humourous guy. always pumped myself wif coffee to stay awake for late nites. Though for thurs, dere wasn't ani coffee, so i decided to settle for tea...but seriously, i still tink coffee is better lor.

planning for CM was crazee i tell u. First dae of sch..yesh..onli first dae of sch, i had to stay bac wif JH n Ros to plan it. planning for e treasure(cum location) hunt was even more jia lat. on mondae, stayed bac till 6pm. n subsequent daes were kinda better though. Seriously, i tink tis whole CM is a total waste of time n effort, n i haf no idea y SP wanted to initiate e whole proj, furthermore, let US, yes..US! yr 2s! do it! i mean, we're having A lvls tis yr, so bz, n u wan us to do tis crap! she's too much..a total air head n no brainer!

Aniwae, enuff of her, let's get bac to sch life shall we? haha..caught up again wif my frends, though not wif e OGLs, coz dey were so bz, so klass attendance everydae would b 17. we did crash into orientation on wed, where we we intro'ed to our junior klass, 05s12! QUite a bubble bunch, n my first impression, quite sociable. haha..u can correct me if im wrong la hor, but tt's juz first impression. den of coz, Luciano was located @ e squash court, like last yr, Delphi was oso located @ e squash court. den dere was e usual cheers, games etc. Finally, we 04s12 headed bac to lectures.

fri was another hectic dae. morning had icebreakers wif our juniors. nxt lecture, n finally, we started e CM. JH n I stayed bac to gif e briefing bout e CM. meanwhile, Ros n Chow went around to place e clues. Finally, we set off.

actually, tis treasure cum location hunt went quite smoothly. ros's grp was soooo enthu lor! mine wasn't lor..in fact dey were quite pek chek..sigh. jh grp's was worse. wen dey came bac to sch, dey didn't even do anithing. but aniwae, dun wanna tink bout it. aniwae, im glad some of my s12 peeps did appreciate wad we've done! thanks 04s12! u roc!

stayed in sch wif e klass. after a while, i broke up wif e klass n played e piano in e hall. nthg better to do. no one was watching, so aniwae, i juz played my hearts out. felt so good after tt. went bac to e walkway, den had a nice chat wif qing yang. soon, it was 5pm, n e dance party was starting soon. juz as we about to head to coro, jun hao left. so aniwae, it was onli e remaining 3 of us; me,mabel n joce. haha..had tuna n crackers @ e stairs. tok tok tok, eat eat eat, n it was 7pm++! time to head bac to sch for party..wen we reached e side gate! ahhh!! locked! luckily sumone told us tt e guard had went to e toilet for a while, so we juz waited. haha..our patience paid.

dance n partied wif o5s12, n e OGLs. haha..seriously, tis dance party does bring bac lotsa memories. haha..though, 05s12 wasn't dancing soo much. leon was continually encouraging em to dance lor. but aniwae, we had fun. haha..so sorry yen! din noe how to do e mass dance...i looked so stupid,haha...but i did haf fun la! o yeah! n not forgetting i hanged out wif buddies brent n shaun to see mr yeo do e DJ mixing..so kewl. though he didn't haf those big turn tables! man! tt would b totally cool man!

soon, i had to head home, coz muz beat e crowd. i was oso getting quite tired...all e build up of fatigue these past couple of daes. haha..n finally, had a good nite's rest!

aniwae, tt's all for now! ~ =)

25th-29th dec

2004-12-29T09:25:00.000-08:00

todae's e 29th of dec

aniwae, christmas was quite okay. Went to church wif my cuzzies in e morning for mass. Quite enriching..esp e preaching part...abt Power...tt was very interesting, humourous, but nevertheless did pack quite a message. I did think over it for quite some time. After e mass, dere was a lunch reception. Eunice's frends, oso from NJ, came. haha..i recognized one of em..how? I rmb Eunice was taking e bus in e wrong direction, n her friend was wif her. i kept telling her it was wrong direction, but she insisted she was correct! even her friend agreed wif her! in e end, she realli travelled in e wrong direction! haha..Esther(her sis) told me! i was laughing my hearts out.

aniwae, told em i wanted to eat abit...but how i noe i did eat quite a substantial amt! Geesh..i was full man! aniwae, had a chat wif my cuzzies, b4 my aunt n uncle drove me bac home. e rest of e dae was spent practicing e piano, so nthg much.

Post christmas,26th. Morning headed down to Tedd's place for lesson as usual. He gave me many fingerings for e A flat ballade..finally, problems solved. But i've gotta work harder on e Liszt coz of e recordings coming up. Aniwae, afternoon my cuzzies came again. haha..dey were an hour late man! Found out dey went shopping! Played Crash Bash...haha! den after a while, played DDR..Esther not bad sia! Soon enuff, my uncle n aunt came, had dinner...n time flew, n dey left around 10pm. quite nice...had a hearty gaming session wif em.

That nite, while watching news, heard bout e Tsunami that hit mani countries. It was truely terrifying man! E Death toll's one of e highest i've seen. What's more, it didn't juz hit A country. It hit MANY countries! Geesh. On tt dae, e current death toll was abt 10k. Todae, 29th, e death toll's abt 55k. Now..tt's 5.5 times e original amount..geesh...

I find it very very saddening as it happening on boxing dae. Not onli tt, it happened on e morning after christmas! Juz wen u tot u could enjoy a dae @ e beach..wen suddenly, a tsunami comes...n boom...everything around u juz disappears under e ocean water. Ani of ya watched Deep Impact or The Day After Tommorrow? ya...e scene if almost e same. Sometimes, we dunnoe wen we're gonna leave this world, so gotta live everydae to e fullest!

Enuff of sadness, im down wif e darn flu..tis sux totally! n i've gotta do recording too..geezer! aniwae, looking fwd to sch reopening nxt wk! how time flies..2004 is gonna end soon, n here comes 2005! haha..see new faces, n from wad i noe, onli 1 marist confirm coming here..heh..not surprised lor. Aniwae, marists dun come to NJ. im those rare few. Juz haf to c who's coming down!

Aniwae peeps, enjoy ur Week! =)

20-25th dec

2004-12-25T14:46:00.000-08:00

haha..trust me. tis entry is gonna b short!

20th-23rd..bz doing piano stuff..geesh..aniwae, lemme continue on to 24th

finally, could rest on 24th,so went out wif shaun to watch Kung Fu Hustle @ 1pm. haha...damn farny show. darn...we ended up watching in e lousy lido4. e seats sux lor...so little leg room. aniwae, overall, e show was darn entertaining....though i wasn't laughing my head off, but it was still very entertaining..esp e effects! wah lau..those moves damn cool sia! haha! esp e last part, wen stephen chow fight all e baddies..like matrix liddat lor..haa..dey're almost making a spoof outta matrix.

After e show, shaun headed down to my place...played Crash Bash..for like sae..10 mins? haha..den he rushed off to church, while i went to my council x'mas party

had some difficulty finding my juniors place. but i was quite impressed wif e estate lor...it looks so much like a chalet..except tis one has 3 floors and a basement. realli gives u tt neightbourhood feeling..like everyone living together under e same roof.

so during e party, played Crash Bash, n some other games. haha..Mahjong was damn farn lor...my junior tian chin, luff n luff n luff, haha...den benjamin oso make those damn stupid remarks....damn farny...we all luff until i couldn't even throw my tile down lor. it was sooo farny...but aniwae,i've finally LEARNT how to play mahjong. haha..though im abit unsure how to start e game...e dealing part,but other den tt, e rest i very clear.

after which, exchanged prezzies. i oso played grand theft auto:san andreas! wah lau! damn evil lor e game! but it feels sooooo great to b e bad guy! haha! den later my junior help me type cheat code, den i got tis tank! i even flew a harrier sia! haha..damn farny...den blast e living day lights outta e cops!

It was reaching midnite liaoz, so quickly left wif chung ee, tinghan and chung teck(chung ee younger bro). during e journy, chung ee and i gave lotsa advice to our juniors abt JC life. heh..i've gone thru tt period oreli, so it was nice passing on e knowledge.

@ Newton, i wasn't able to get a bus lor! waited so DARN long, den decided to take a cab..major rip off, but no choice!

aniwae, tt's all for till christmas eve! i'll blog bout christmas latur!~

19th nov

2004-12-21T17:54:00.000-08:00

yep! im blogging again! haha..yea..aniwae...

went out wif cuzzies on sundae. been quite some time since i went out wif em. aniwae, so pai seh lor! dey bought mi my christmas present, n to b frank, i HAVENT DONE MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING YET! im so screwed...but so bz lor..mon to fridae got music stuff to do...how in e WORLD m i gonna buy prezzies..furthermore, im meeting em on wad...sat again..im like..."uh oh!"

Met Eunice first, den later met Esther. went to makan over @ Pasta mania @ Cine..den i passed by tis shop selling soft toys..den was tinking..geesh..nid to get prezzie for xy! den had a good idea..but e toys weren't e one tt i tink she liked..but aniwae, im expanding my search! heh!

after had dinner, headed down over to Lido to catch Ocean's 12. darn..orchard road was crowded i tell u...v crowded! dere was some kinda parade down dere..dunnoe wad. aniwae, we din haf time to watch it as we were almost outta time already!

Ocean's 12 was quite entertaining..esp e ending..though abit unbelievable. haha...but overall, e actors did manage to bring out some good n slack acting(hmm..how to describe to u ah..those kinda whereby not serious type). yup...

nxt went shopping wif em..after which i got lotsa ideas of wad to buy..todae's wed 22nd dec...n i nid to shop todae man! aniwae, Kungfu hustle is out! but dun tink can watch wif shaun lor..darn...schedule tis week is too tight..furthermore, celebrating christmas from fridae till sundae..not bad huh? aniwae, bro, i'll try to find some time ;-). & call my percussion buddies to come down! we're gonna rock e house down!

tt's all bloggie! time to get bac to work!~

17th Dec

2004-12-17T05:04:00.000-08:00

Finally, outta my home..can finally chill out n interact wif pple...yesh..i almost havent gone outta my home for a week, n im going nuts already!

aniwae, met brent, pradeep n hengwee @ PS todae. Had lunch together @ BK. Darn..dey were 1/2 and hour late lor! but whu cares! aniwae, had a quick bite, den we headed down to Star Fac to play....PERCUSSION MASTER!!! HW left coz he had smthg to do in sch....council stuff, from wad i heard

haha...deep like almost nvr play initially, so it was brentz n i slogging it out for e best. After a while, din wanna play. yeah..had some small headache..dunnoe wad it was..guess muz b due to e loud noises..but i kinda gotten used to being partially deaf in e arcade liaoz..dunnoe y..

aniwae, shaun arrived soon enuff, n den we headed down to watch National Treasure. Overall, quite impressive. 3/5 stars. haha..dey did manage to make e plot QUITE believable i would sae, though im sure such a treasure would nvr exist.

After e movie, headed down again to star fac..tis time it was shaun playing PM and slogging it out wif brent. haha..deep did play later..surprisingly. I got abit tired of playing PM, so played keyboard mania and beatmania! damn..dey're so darn tuff man! Even for 3 stars it's so freakin confusing sia! all e small little keys coming down..urgh! What makes me wonder is y pple who play Percussion Freaks are always so DAMN good! u nvr, or rarely c amateurs play..those whu usually do r so damn fast sia!so damn good too. i 1der how much dey've spent into e darn game to b so darn good.

Headed down to e X Zone @ DB MRT to play. damn..deep n brent got chased out coz tis dweeb managed to recognized dey were wearing NJ house T. aniwae, bidded farewell to em, n shaun n i stayed dere. i played abit of DDR, but kept losing...guess gotta get used to e new tracks AND a new playing style, which required u to put ur feet n hold it over @ 1 arrow, n tap e others...which definitely increases e difficulty up a notch.

When i was outta e arcade again, e darn headache came bac again. Ate something light wif shaun...dunnoe wassup todae. after dinner, headed bac. dunnoe y, i feel tired, n e headache did linger on. haha..it's so unlike me. mayb it's too much staying around @ home..

geesh! i've JUS gotta do my Christmas shopping fast! darnnit!aniwae, ardios pple~

2004-12-14T23:32:00.000-08:00

here i m again, blogging, with nthg better to do

1st things first, it's grrrreat to b able 2 play my piano @ home. aniwae, e upgrade did work! e keys r much harder, n yesh, dey're also more sensitive to my touch. heh! though i cant play my octaves wif e speed n agility tt i once could, tt's a small issue. i tink once i get my octaves done, dey'll b darn strong. aniwae, had some probs wif e middle pedal, so called up Mr Man to help me wif it. haha..apparently, it was such a minor job. juz turn e screw clockwise, n it's all done...kaoz!

aniwae, im glad yc patched up wif his gf. sigh~ sometimes all these relationships can cause lotsa troubles, but well, once both parties can agree n r willing to put aside their differences, it'll b much smoother sailing. Love is complicated....

im glad tedd's coming bac tis sun, got quite some stuff to discuss wif him, esp bout nxt wk...yeah...im starting to feel bit moody now..dunnoe y. mayb im jealous...tt everyone out dere's enjoying their hols, while im here, @ home, working my guts out @ e piano. Aniwae, tis's e path's i've chosen..i realli hope it works out too. Hope it all pays off...sometimes, i sit alone, in my room..thinking bout whether it'll work out, whether i'll pull thru tis,wondering....worrying...etc.. yeah...ever since i took up tis path, so mani things haf come to my mind. I sometimes feel im being v isolated from e world...deep down inside, im kinda suffering...im a guy who loves socializing, juz tt i cant, coz of tis committment. i ask myself...izzit worth while? will it pay off?

I only pray n hope God continues to guide me.

aniwae, im tired of writing all these. nitez~

2004-12-12T05:14:00.000-08:00

hmm..tis aint a signal tt im updating my blog frequently..juz nthg to do..so decided to blog

im feeling strange these past couple of daes...seems to me every alternate daes i will catch a cold..yesh..strange right? but seems 2 b tt dae. one dae, im sneezing..n everything, n e nxt, im fine, after i've eaten medication.den on e 3rd dae, tis comes bac again..izzit e sinus? o well...juz haf to c wad's wrong wif me.

mom's pretty much in a bad mood todae...im grumpy todae too.mayb itz coz i din play my piano for e past few daes...im kinda cheesed off tuner didn't come n return my keys for e piano todae...urgh...i suspect he was lazing around...kinda pisses me off..but o well..he saez he's comin tmr(mondae 13th). i kinda dislike mondae e 13th, aint exactly a nice dae. y? Coz who looks fwd to mondae? Mondae Blues . 13th aint a nice number either..sigh..wth la.

over this weekend been doing my hmwk..yah..haha..maths n phy. getting realli tired of it..though i started..o well, mayb e momentum aint dere la. sian...den i realized i couldn't do alot of qns...pissed off. concepts aint dere yet..o well*shrugs shoulders*

ya..im so bored, i dunnoe wad im writing. installed COD:UO again n played it. quite fun la..though gets abit boring after a while. Though e single player still rox. Juz finished watching e 9th episode for Band of Brothers. n yesh...i've watched e whole series(all 10 episodes) @ least 5-6 times already. but i still dun get sick of it lor...n im watching it again..lol! i guess it's e realism n e moments of humanity admist e warzone tt makes it such a compelling mini-series. it's one of those movies tt not onli depicts e horrors of war, but also e power of wad miracles e human heart can do. yep...Bravery...Chivalry..etc..those kinda stuff. e 9th episode featured abt e discovery of e Nazi Concentration camp..whereby dey found those Jews. Yeah...quite gross...all e dead bodies...sigh...so mani pple were murdered during tt time. innocent pple. sometimes life's unfair...but hey...who saez life was ever fair ;)? juz gotta accept it n make e best use of our life

We only live Life once, so Live it to e fullest!

Sleepy Weeky

2004-12-10T06:14:00.000-08:00

yup..more den e week since i've blogged.

nthg much actually, juz decided to add smthg new in case it ot reali boring. Piano's been sent fot a kinda overall...yup..guy gonna tighten e strings. hope e keys bcome much harder to play...tis way i got more room for expression eh

went out wif shaun to do CIP on thurs. b4, went to clementi to find a pirated shop, but it was gone! den went down one more stop, to JE, and e shop was gone too! argghhh!! wasted my time. anwiae, met shaun @ JE, den we headed to PS. man..we went by e Woodlands way lor..so darn long, if take e other way, wuld haf b much faster. aniwae, i did snooze. heh..nided some slp.

CIP was damn boring..was crapping around wif shaun during tt 4 hrs..played hangman though. den we decided to chill out @ BK a while..haha..but we left early la..sian..no pt staying oso. seriously, ya ask me, grant wish CIP v sian..UNLESS ur wrapping presents. seems 2 mi no 1 wanna wraps prezzies @ nite. furthermore, it's too early..not close to Christmas yet eh. after we left, headed to Star Fac to play Percussion Master! it Rox man! i learnt it v quickly..but e disappointing aspect of e game is a few tracks, n seriously, it aint tt diff once u get e hang of it. but overall, it was a farn n refreshing experience! thx shaun!

aniwae, fel came bac on wed*haha..betcha enjoyed urself! ur leg definitely not as "suan" as b4 la*. flight time onli 3.5 hrs..yah..n brent oso going HK..haha..so coincidental. she come bac from dere, he go dere. nvr been dere . haha..though dad's been dere. heard e food dere is good. hha..canto food always good..my mom's a canton..n her cooking's grrrreat!

aniwae, enuff blogging..im bored~ well, do some maths juz to pass e time =p

Council Seminar

2004-11-30T06:24:00.000-08:00

haha..not NJ council seminar

it's a council seminar by my sec sch maris stella. overall, it was good.aniwae, since i was a senior, i decided to sit in. here's how e dae went...

met up wif kee liang @ 1pm..darn..he was quite punctual. apparently, 2 cats were catwalking around e canteen...first time saw cats, coz MS(Maris Stella) nvr had cats..o well

went to haf free lunch @ e primary sch canteen..food was good. free summore...so wad can u expect? ;) caught up e old times wif kee liang aniwae.

after an hr long chat, headed down to e student recre centre. haha..very farny...abt suggestions to improve sch welfare..sum suggestions & discussions were farny...esp e handfone 1. During e break, we tok kok again, n den saw Mr Kay..haha..still as cheerful as ever. had a nice chat wif him, but he was heading home neway...

finally, after some waiting..time for soccer! yesh..tt's one of e reasons y i came down. haha..had a good match wif some of e juniors. soon enuff, ervin n kee meng came too! seniors VS juniors match. Kenny came late lor..we nearly hantam him. aniwae, played on for some time, nxt thing we knew, it was night. Den something bad happened. My left calf muscle cramped...so i was OOA(Out Of Action). Damn lor...dunnoe how..i tink i slide tackle my junior...so this happened.

BBQ started sooner den i expected. aniwae, thx to ervin, kee liang n ken who helped me up..lol..realli felt abit bad.food was not bad...though im very sure i onli tried a limited portion of it. after some toking kok session, finally headed home.

strangely,wen i headed back to MS, alot of memories flooded back to me. i'd guess it's nostalgia..but these memories realli make me feel part of e sch, n how my lift was integrated into it.

aniwae, time to rest. better get my leg to recover soon..quite inconvenient.lol.

~MS Student Council Rox! 29th Student Council EXCO roxxxxx!!~

CIP

2004-11-26T07:13:00.000-08:00

yeah..y m i tokin bout CIP..so boring..aniwae, nthg better to do, so juz blog

todae's e 26th of Nov... had to do some CIP wif yc..on e grant a wish thingie.

nthg much happening in e morning,spent e whole mor n half of afternoon prac piano. left home @ around 3.20pm. Decided to head down to arcade to play percussion freaks...but sian lor..everytime e game played by sumone. den i dun wan play in front of mani peeps...haha..scared pai seh.

aniwae, waited for yc @ zone X @ dhoby ghaut..he was 1/2 hour late..n i got kinda cheessed off. finally, we headed to e booth @ b1. E booth was closed, so while we opened up, this auntie came up to us to ask us to wrap our presents...we were like "o no...this is our 1st dae...how ah?" . den i told e auntie to come bac later while we set up e stall n read e instructions. haha..after some time, she came back, and we apologized tt she had to get her own wrapping paper. luckily, she was very understandable and said it was ok..so sorry...

to our surprise, 2 other gals came to man e booth too. apparently, dey had been working from 12pm to 9pm. Zhi ying and Pei Zhi...haha..still rmb their names. aniwae, yc n i had a intro chat wif em, juz to know them n vice versa. we found e silence very unnerving, so decided to break e ice btw em. luckily dey were quite sociable pple. aniwae, dey were from NYJ...oso take phy, chem,econs,maths(haha! same as us s12!). but in NY, it's e s6 combi, not like in nj, s5. aniwae, we played some truth and dare stuff, haha..nxt thing we knew, yc was doing veyr stupid things. i dared him to do la..lol

aniwae, had dinner @ around 7.50.wen we came back, another gal came..though we didnt noe her name. apparently, she was pei zhi frend, so aniwae, we asked her some stuff. she's oso from crescent..so as usual, we asked e "do u noe ......." questions lor, and vice versa. quite interesting, to noe how strangers can b connected to u in some ways. lol, aniwae, s'pore's a small country, so it aint a surprise.

Nxt thing we knew, it was 9pm, and we packed up n left. yc n i den went arcade played some games. wanted to play ddr lor! but i was wearing bermudas...n it was hanging @ my hips...so u tink i dare play? ;) lol!

after some idle chatter, we den headed home. yc told me tt he's being a difficult boifrend towards em..hmm...i realized i was like this 2 yrs ago. but well, being couples, u've gotta b more understanding of each other. tt's y it's great being SIA =)

Class Chalet

2004-11-24T20:22:00.000-08:00

In one word, GREAT!

This is my first class chalet..yesh. Back in e daes of being a marists, dere was no such thing called a class chalet. n trust me, this one rocked big time! No words can describe it. Even in my semi-conscious state now(yesh...i juz woke up), i still feel good writing abt e class chalet!

22nd Nov

Woke up on a usual mondae morning. but got kinda excited abt it. Aniwae, i kinda spent e whole morning doing Tech Run for e PS and PS2..yesh! TECH RUN! Believe it or not(sounds like PW huh). I was kinda afraid e systems would juz screw up during those daes or smthg liddat. But aniwae, it did to some extent..but not serious*phew*. Aniwae, after tt, had lunch n headed down for e chalet. *phoo*. Lemme tell u this, e 2 bags which contained e ps and ps2 stuff were HEAVY! luckily for me, i had asked for Chow's assistance for e bags. heh heh!

After meeting chow @ newton, we headed to pasir ris. Surprisingly, we met shi qin! yesh! and so did we meet kah yen...haha..kah yen, blur as usual..didn't c us both! until we popped behind her n said "hi", den she was surprised to see us! haha..aniwae, we waited for di's gang to come. finally..after QUITE a wait..dey came. aniwae, we arrived @ pasir ris(late obviously..lol), we met @ klass! heh! e whole klass was waiting man! sheesh! so everyone tok tok awhile, and we headed to our chalet.

@ e chalet...our main MAN was missing..yesh..Si Da..haha..he was late..n we waited for him till we could enter e chalet. Initially, i had thoughts e darn chalet would b quite small...like e council one. As i entered e room, i was astonished! it was kinda huge!(sorry for my ignorance..1st time lor). The main hall was quite large too..bedrooms too. Aniwae, i hurriedly had to do another tech run wif e TV. I rushed forward to check whether e TV had enuff ports for my gaming systems.I was dismayed initially..it didn't haf e red port(what do u call it). So was like..shit! den dere wasn't another power socket for my gaming system. Furthermore, we had no adaptor. So, wif my quick thinking, e guys, brought e TV to our room. Aniwae, b4, we kinda haf a mini debate on e rooms..n sure enuff, wif s12 around, it was damn bloody comical...haha...e gals even tried to stop us brining e TV to e GUYS ROOM! Aniwae, we did a tech run..i did it..n yesh! it worked! When e ps2 sign appeared, we cheered man! yesh..cheered!

So i got into action immediately by playing fifa wif ah hoo n brentz n chow..haiz..teamed up wif chow, but loss to em. haha..had a trashing la..damn sian. after a while, shi qin came in n asked if can play puzzle bobble, n of coz, i agreed. but geezer, it didn't work on my ps man! so i was kinda sad it didn't work...but dey didn't mind. luckily, jun hao brought e other party games..CRASH BASH! haha..everyone had a great time playing man! haha..it was euphoria wen everyone played, especially polar push..e one which we pushed each other off e darn cliff. haha..it was sooo farny man! haha..but we had a great time! Aniwae, soon, we were playing DDR. yesh... haha...i did a tech run for it. Next thing i knew, almost everyone was playing. I was wondering y everyone laughed wen i played. wen i saw everyone else play, haha..i too was laughing. damn farny, e way pple dance..but aniwae, e klass pressured me to play e hard tracks..haha.. no choice. aniwae, i tried paranoia 190..i was OUT OF BREATH after it ended..haha..unfortunately, i didn't manage to pass e stage. haha..boon, shi qin, n yesh..kah yen danced too. haha..boon was not bad. haha..brent danced too..though he tried to dance in secrecy initially, but was soon discovered! heh heh! coz of me!

Dinner was not bad too..though i wasn't tt hungry. coz had a heavy lunch. Den dere was e usual gaming session, and late @ nite, we played Mafia...yeah..some game. 1st round i was mafia, 2nd detective..n..i tink 3rd or 4th round, i was e mafia again. haha...though for e last round, i managed to stay alive for a long time..as a mafia. heh heh! aniwae, it's a great party and ice breaker...betcha e OGLs for my klass will use tt for ice breakers 4 nxt yr's orientation =)

haha..im having amnesia now..cant recall wad i did after mafia..but aniwae, plz refer to other s12ians blogs for more details. Though i was vert sure mani gals went home tt nite.

23rd Nov

Slept at 3am. woke up @ round 7am. wen i woke up, saw brent n jun hao playing crash bash....trying to unlock some game secrets. haha..good work on their effort,though we lost all e data, coz didn't save..sigh. but aniwae, played till 9am, den we had breakfast @ Macs. Guess wad, i saw Pee Wee! yah! kaoz! he was having a class chalet too! but not everyone. he was surprised by my klass strength...aniwae, had a short chat wif him, den went back to haf breakfast. aniwae, had some discussion abt sleeping on e previous nite. Apparently, youyi had onli slept 15 hrs for 4 daes due to some scout camp, so during e chalet, he was soooo shagged out, he slept like a pit. upon entering e gals room, he slept. hahahah! hey..his snore was loud man. aniwae, he was transported to e guys' room..n yesh, we had a hard time sleeping. =( Luckily for me, i was used to it(haha..bro always snores). After some idle chatter, we went bac to e chalet and did out own stuff

heh! WRESTLING! Vince had already come e previous nite, n he decided to try smackdown. we played, n i was quite impressed by how good he was. aniwae, he did play smackdown on ps b4, so it was expected. played all kinds of matches. nxt thing we knew, e gals asked who wanted to go cycling, n i of coz went wif em. cycled an hour though, but it was great aniwae. aniwae, 10 of us headed down*including me*. i paid for all of em first..though im quite sure dere's quite a few others who havent paid yet..haha. it was great cycling again..e wind..e speed. yeah..we cycled to e beach..n soon enuff, had to head back to return e bikes. Next thing we knew, it rained..n as e saeing goes " When it rains, it pours". Everyone was drenched. Aniwae, im so sorry for messing up e route back..make u'll travel up n down. Aniwae, yen, di, shi qin and joce went bac first. i was waiting for e other 5..apparently, 3 bikes broke down, so aniwae, i saw em bringing e bikes bac. We were back aniwae,n luckily for us, dey didn't charge us an extra hour. haha..di n her weird ideas,said tt wen we got back, juz sae we went Wild Wild Wet. heh..betcha not mani pple will buy tt excuse. Actually, being wet was good, coz i finally had to wash up. aniwae, i continued playing smackdown wif vince, n tis time round, we had a good time laughing...y?

you yi n brent joined in...n man..wif this combi, u could expect a big clowning session. Especially while playing Cage match. hahahaha! i continually won e cage match lor! However, dey tried all methods to get me down..literally! haha..it was soooo damn funny man!finally, after mani tries, vince won a match. aniwae, b4 tt, i had played cards wif shi qin, vince n ah hoo. haha..heart attack n bluff.i won twice for heart attack. for bluff, i lost..2pid ah hoo..make me construct deck.

Nitez, headed down to arcade to play. everyone was very tired..like zombies, esp brent n wil. i didn't play ani game..lazee to fork out cash to play. lol. Lynette had oso come down tt nite. by tt nite, si da had left. chow n jun sheng had left in e afternoon. yup. aniwae, mi brent n nette played crash bash again. yeah..i was bored aniwae, haha. Nette was good! haha..she won e tourney. aniwae, we all played till our hand pain...n yesh...my thumbs r pain! after all tt pressing. who's thumb wouldn't b.

aniwae, mani peeps went to slp early tt nite. esp e band peeps, coz dey had band prac. so jun hao had to clear e stuff. had ice cream very late @ around 1am. Cookies n cream....it was darn good. haha..ah hoo, youyi n brent were playing fifa aniwae. lemme c, if i aint wrong, we oso played mafia. but this time, very few peeps. me, nette,crystal,wil,jun hao, di, mabel,shiqin,ah hoo, brent n you yi. haha..you yi narrated e whole story in chinese..wth lor. haha..n he was a forgetful one indeed. haha..he even asked e mafias to wake up again to double check who dey killed. hahahha..wt heck lor!

aniwae, e TV was shifted bac to it's original position. so i decided to take this time to clear e floor n arrange e gaming stuff. actually, i didn't wanna slp much tt nite, but wif nthg better to do, i slpt.

24th Nov
slpt @ 3am. to my surprise, everyone slpt too. woke up @ 9 am aniwae, btw..juz for ur info, you yi was sleeping right beside me, so u can imagine how loud his snore was...on a scale from 1 to 10, i would sae 11. haha..jkjk la. but like wad i said, im used to it. so aniwae, i slpt. wen i woke up, jun hao, mab, shi qin and crystal had left n written a msg. darn..didn't c dem off lor. *aniwae, u all haf a nice dec hol!* onli nette,di,joce,yen,vince,me,brent,wil,youyi n ah hoo were left to arrange e stuff. We had breakfast @ BK, and nxt thing we knew, we headed home.

aniwae, a few hours ago, vince n you yi left my home after playing smackdown @ my place..haha..guess dey enjoyed themselves again.

Time realli flies. Within this 3 daes, everyone had realli let their hair down. I guess e chalet had also given me some new meaning in life, and e energy to get back on track n to continue my piano n studies.so a Big Thanks to all those who had organized it!

Emotions

2004-11-21T05:59:00.000-08:00

Mayb im too narrow minded.....

yc said being open minded is tuff..which is quite true. Everytime in our lives, we're always trying to b more open. With our minds, with our HEARTS.

Todae was one of those days where i took sumone's words kinda seriously, n got very hurt by em. yesh....n i kinda upset my mom coz of this*so sorry! =(* Whatever e case, i've kinda gotten over it. Was walking down S'pore River...along esplanade. Juz looking @ e sea..e large ocean definitely lifted my spirits quite alot...wanted to find sumone to tok to..juz didn't noe who. but aniwae, im kinda better now.

for tt person im referring to, i hope u do not actually mean wad u said. if so, im greatly saddened..............

sometimes i tink to myself....wad i've done to receive this kinda shit from pple sometimes...n i realli dun understand y. especially, those closest to u....dey juz treat u lightly, and dun care abt wad dey sae, and sometimes, wad dey sae hurts u very deeply...tt realli hurts u alot. i noe..im a guy..shuldn't b saeing tis...but i guess after pursueing my interest in music, it's kinda made me very in touch wif my emotions.

That's y im sad...by what tt someone said. sometimes i tink back..whether to realli forgive tt someone...but i dunnoe. juz haf to forgif n forget and assume someone didn't mean it huh....sigh~

enuff of tis...looking forward to klass chalet. wanna drown all my negative feelings while enjoying myself....i dun ever wanna rmb tt someone animore...

from nov 8-14th

2004-11-15T09:11:00.000-08:00

oOo! been quite some time since i updated my blog. yup. more den a week. aniwae, since i've got nthg better to do, so i'll juz blogz it.

hm...from 8th till 10th..pretty boring daes, so nthg much to sae, but was bz practising n practising as usual. though i kinda got sick of it. haha..occasionally got into idle chatter wif shaun abt some games stuff. haha..sooner or later, i guess the Mapling disease got to him. Guess he was bored wif nthg else better to do. i 1der...wad so nice abt Maple Story.

ah! 11th was a big dae. though i shan't wanna sae it. pretty it was a long n tiring dae. *heh! those close to me wuld haf known wad had happened*. Overall, i received quite alot of good feedback. In fact, i was quite astonished by how fast i adapted to stuff.

12th! yesh! went out wif yc. tt blur pal of mine..haha. no la..jkjk. so long nvr meet up n tok kok, so decided to call him out. neway, we oso quite free wif nthg better to do. I wanted to meet up wif him earlier, *coz i din haf nething on from 11am onwards, and was getting bored idling around*, but he kept saeing he had to eat @ home.sian! so we'd stick to e normal time, meet up @ 2pm . We den went to paradigm to play pool, which, to OUR SURPRISE, dere were so few tables! it was so unlikely man! couldn't believe it! 2pm u noe, we were tinking,"sarks, dere wuld not b ani tables available, and had to go down to meridian, which was..i could sae...$$$$$$$$$.
We played 4 games though, coz we din wanna spend e whole dae playing pool . Game score was even, 2-2. haha..though i won 1 game coz he hit e black ball in . pretty unfortunate huh.

o! i din mention i met emiline*darn...4get whether spelling correct ornot* @ PS as i had to eat ma..dere she was dazing around. aniwae, she had juz ordered her food n was on her way bac to sch soon. so we had a idle chat. After my meal @ BK, called Buchan to ask her some theory stuff. hmmm...i oso called her on sat, haha..but i guess she forgot bout it. lol! me too! everyone's havin amnesia

Back to e dae, after POOL, we went LANNING. yesh...e guy's stuff. played a super lame round of game of frozen throne wif yc. he kept building up defences, den in e end, i decided to follow suit. i had so much cash, furthermore, i had e goblin sapper, i built 4 layers of orc watch towers, totally impregnable sia. could haf trashed him, but decided..aiyah..2pid game. though i did think e LAN shop was quite a rip off..im nvr hearding to meridian again.

We had nthg to do nxt, so we walked around toking nonsense. finally,we decided to head down to kino. ah..to our surprise, we saw a WWII book, wif lotsa pictures! heh! good, so we read it intently. after some time, heard he had to go off @ 6pm+ to check out some stuff, so i juz followed him to take e MRT. was kinda lazee to take e bus, coz wasn't in e mood to wait for transport.

sat..13th nov..mellow dae..so shant tok much bout it.

o! 14th, sundae! which is like, yesterdae. in e morning, had a usual lesson wif Tedd. man..was dere lotsa stuff to realli work on man! he's pushing me all e way! but good! @ least i've got lotsa things to work on. aniwae, after lesson, met up wif xy. haha..been abt 4 months since i last met her, though we still keep in touch. couldn't believe it! i was early @ e MRT, den i tot to myself..mayb shuld head down to PS watch movie, so i IMMEDIATELY called her to tell her to go to dhoby ghaut. i couldn't get her initially...apparently, her fone didn't haf ani reception, so i frantically called.coz i didn't wan her to be in a situation, where she tap her card already, den i sae we head down to PS. haha..she would kill me for sure. finally, i managed to get her, and told her to go to DB. i asked her where she was, she didn't noe(pretty blur hor =p). Aniwae, i boarded e nxt train to marina bay. guess wad.....SHE was on e SAME train as me! dotz* Though i didn't c her, i knew, coz she was kinda behind me while going up e escalator. haha! this was not e first time. e last time i went out to study wif her, e SAME thing happened! lol!

man..am i getting tired writing such a long entry...haha..but nvm. i SHALL continue..*phoo*. went to KFC to eat. ya noe, kinda geting sian of eating fast food. haha..havent been exercising lately..all these fast food gonna kill me man. den headed down to GV to catch a movie. darn! e apparently, we had missed a 2.30 show for Sharks Tale, e nxt show was 5pm! gosh..n she din wanna watch den. tinking of watchin incredibles @ 4pm, but she didnt..haha..said it was lame. but well, din wanna force anithing, so wif my quick tinking(lol..thick skin hor), called back home to get my sis to check out show times. Bingo..sharks tale..4pm @ cine!

Betcha some of ya muz b tinkin how e show was. Quite impressive! b4 tt, dere was a Madagascar movie trailer..haha..quite comical too. All e colourful characters around, and a pretty comical storyline. haha..this movie definitely appeals to all, not juz kids. i rmb, Oscar...e main character, saeing smthg like, to rather be "a Nobody wif something, den be a Somebody wif nothing". Aniwae,i shall explain abt tt sentence later.

After which, we juz strolled around orchard somerset, toking n toking abt stuff. den her mom called to tell her to dine out. so aniwae, decided to accompany her for dinner. aniwae, during dinner, we tok lots of personal stuff, haha..n i gradually got to know wad happened during tt period of time in which we didn't tok(not coz we had a feud, coz we were juz do bz den). haha..relationships can b so complicated. Sometimes it's great being S.I.A(Single Independent Available). After her dinner, we continued toking and finally headed home. It was pretty late, so i decided to juz accompany her back. By e time i was home, it was around 9.15pm. haha..Charlie's Angels was abt to end too! had a good dinner of mee siam..though i heard from my mom it wasn't good for e stomach. den juz lazed around @ home. was realli tired...heh..still havent recovered from e long dae on thurs, but aniwae, had a good's nite's rest!

Admist all e colourful n comical stuff in Sharks' Tale, the line "to rather be a Nobody wif something, den be a Somebody wif nothing". realli struck me quite hard. Sometimes in life, wen we start being a Somebody, we become so proud of our own achievements,wad we succeeded to do, tt we forget or even neglect those closest to us. These people, our loved ones had helped us in our path to success. As such, wen we start losing e ones closest to us, we start to treasure those around us, b4 it becomes too late. It is den, that we start to rmb e times being a Nobody, tt we truely treasure those around us,esp those tt we love. haha..i noe, sounds kinda corny and nostalgic. though im not saeing b a nobody. juz treasure those closest to ya, n not lose em. always rmb how u got to ur path of success, and nvr forget those who helped ya, even in e slightest way.

aniwae, tt's e end of my kinda long blog entry! enjoy ur week! =)

boredom...& relief

2004-11-06T05:55:00.000-08:00

Relief..and happiness

y? coz e muting device in my piano's been temporarily repaired. haha..so e neighbourhood wunt haf to hear mi play in full blast..which can b quite..sian. Aniwae, Mr Chew(piano tuner) said he will help me find a better material to replace e current muting device. He saez tt e current one i haf too soft..haha..which i quite agree! Not even 6 months, and the thing koyak liao. totally sux. mayb it's bcoz of e humidity. dunch noe. Aniwae, hope he finds e new and more resilient muting device soon. i realli require it. Especially since e pieces i play r soooo...emotional?

Boredom - coz of my damaged muting device, got realli bored. coz i couldn't hear e diff dynamic ranges of my piano. kinda hindered my playing. as such, i couldn't prac piano. so had to play Neverwinter Nights. but got kinda bored wif it. yeah..e exploration part gets kinda tedious @ times...but nevertheless, it's an interesting game. Aniwae, wanted to ask pple out, but my pals were all not free. Fel wasn't free either. yeah..sux right? so wad else could i do? laze around @ home. yeah..time wasted.

Hm..well. During those..wasted time, actually had room for thought. For e.g, i was able to understand..to.uh hm...Treasure the ones that are closest to u. It's kinda pity..if i had learnt music composition, i dun mind sitting down to compose music..~sigh~.

Aniwae peeps, enjoy ur hols!

not being agreeable wif one's self

2004-10-28T08:10:00.000-07:00

i dunnoe y..sometimes wen i haf lesson wif Tedd, i realli get frustrated n angry. y?
coz im not performing up to standard. @ home, i can play it much better, den wen i play it in front of tedd, den wen i screw up while playing,i realli get frustrated wif myself, n get very angry wif myself.

sometimes, i juz dunnoe wad in world im doing, y i do e opposite of stuff. den i am not @ peace wif myself...n those kinda sucky emotions juz flood back. den i start to isolate myself. like now. juz wanna cool down. sigh~

sometimes, i juz pray to God n Mother Mary for help. Ever since i've seeked Their spiritual guidance, They've never failed to guide me in every small way. Thank U Both again!

Mayb it's bcoz of my impatience tt's causing all these. yesh..Tedd constantly tells me to lower my tempo for e sonata..tt's wad i shuld do. but sometimes, i dun agree. but on e way back..something struck me.

You've gotta learn to walk first, before You Run.

True isn't it?

being @ peace

2004-10-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

hix! im blogging again. din blog for 5 daes. pretty short, compared to peeps who havent blogged in 4 months..heh..aniwae, down to bloggin

todae's kinda mellow, xcept did PW wif my grp members. everything was kinda smooth, though i did forget my darn lines for e role play..this suc..gotta rehearse again.

weekends was spent doing PW again. yesh..ya muz b 1dering..y PW. coz e OP gonna start soon. btw, every other grp oso bz piaing OP. heard from alot of other grps tt dey had to meet up during weekends to do lor. sigh. actually wanted to go out wif my cousin on sundae watch sky cap'n. but well, PW takes precedence over everything right ;)

anywae, these couple of daes been pretty much..peaceful, for me too. "peaceful"..wad does it mean right? hm..being @ ease wif urself. haha..yeah. gotta thank God n Our Mother for aiding me these past couple of months. ALso, another reason to celebrate, coz s12 whole klass being promoted! Yeah..everyone was rejoicing..realli smthg to celebrate lor! anyway, i oso managed to retain e 4 subs. yeah! haha..well..almost everyone got bac their 4 subs. chow, wil n mabel were even offered S paper..now..how's tt for a celebration. aniwae, js and vince had to drop sub, but guys, dun feel dismal bout it. @ least ur promoted, n haf more to concentrate on, so work hard nxt yr.

ya noe...i always had a idea of a klass t-shirt. but aint sure if e klass is fully supportive bout it. wanted to bring it up, but didn't. dunnoe y, come nj..abit hum ji. not as bold as last time. aniwae, gotta pluck up my courage one dae.

was toking to fel* tt nite. apparently, heard tt e O chinese was 8th nov..pretty late huh? furthermore, it was on a mondae. surprise! tot o lvl chinese was always on a fridae..haha..so tt can enjoy weekends. but this yr pretty strange. hmm..seems to me this yr got many farny things changin. oso,had a nice chat wif her tt nite. it's been quite some time since we realli had a kinda..hearty tok. *hey..dun get upset over e chinese results k! continue to focus on ur Os. i've got confidence u can make it one! so haf confidence in urself too! rmb wad i always told ya*

o well..enuff of blogging. gettin tired now. these past couple of daes been havin 6 hrs of slp onli..sian. better get more slp . gd nite folks!=)

ah ha!

2004-10-21T22:49:00.000-07:00

o well! here i am blogging again.

Hmm..lemme start off wif Open Day. Seriously, like wad Mrs Cheng said, it was hugh success, which i realli thought it was lor. Couldn't imagine e reception we received @ e Chess n Bridge booth. haha..Chow was playing othello till all his "brain cells were depleted". which was quite true. He was literally playing from 10am to 3pm+...quite a feat if ya asked me.

haha..i was also glad i saw 3 marists. din expect marists to realli come. neway, i heard from Francis(my junior) that another batch had arrived oOo..seems to me e number of marists will definitely increase nxt yr! haha...lookin forward to it. Anyway, after some time, decided to chill out wif YC. haha..we had a nice long tok abt some relationship stuff again. seems to moi both of us r experiencing e same thing, n givin each other advice. But his advice seems better @ times. Francis n his 2 frends later arrived, n i had a nice chat wif em. As a senior,i decided to gif em lotsa useful advice for choosing JC. Seems to me francis's prob heading to VJ..haha..cant stop him right? ;)

OoO yesh..b4 i forget, congrats to Miss Lau for having a new baby! God Bless to ya family, n all e best to her n her new born child. haha...like my survey..couples wanna haf a child for the Love n Joy of having children. Quite true eh? Anyway, heard from Ross tt she gave birth Sundae Nite..oOo..e klass's gonna visit her soon too! She's in KK. heh..pretti convenient for moi.

ANyway, i kinda disliked e discussion of PROMO paper answer these couple of daes. kinda gettin on my nerves lor. haiz..e more i hear e answers, e more..depressed i bcome. o well, one way or another, i'll still hafta face it. heh!

Whole klass was in a very relaxed mood these couple of daes. even e teachers r givin way lor. miss sim let our klass do PW...but she realli looked pissed...so sorry miss sim..mayb ought to apologize..after some tot. luckily, for mr ong's case, it was diff. haha..we bugged him not to haf tut..den he decided to forego it n tok abt some phy stuff..which of coz bored lotsa pple..haha..but actually, i was listening. Quite interesting. He also mentioned abt e stuff we're gonna learn nxt yr. ooo...lotsa stuff to cover. Lecture theatres were also darn empty...guess e post exam fever has kinda gotten into everyone's head. haha..im no exception.

'cept im workin hard on my piano tt is. yeah..seems to me time is not on my side..onli a few more months...well..time was nvr realli on any one's side, it's juz a matter or making n utilizing it to e fullest extent.

hmm..tt's all folks. these few daes were kinda mellow. heh!~

An Opened Mind

2004-10-15T23:01:00.000-07:00

Yesh...todae's post will b bout an Opened Mind

So ya muz b 1dering...y?
was tokin to yc abt some relationship stuff, n it dawned upon me...that if ya wanna b a Happy person, a person who doesn't let his negative emotions get the better outta him/her, den the key to doing so is having an Opened Mind.

Read bout this story about a monkey and the coconut.

There was a monkey, which got very hungry. It went looking around for some food to eat, and to its surprise, found a coconut. More fortunately, there was already a hole on the coconut, so it definitely gave the monkey a much easier time to drink the water, n probably eat the flesh. Without hesitation, it's hunger overcame it, and it immediately placed its small hands into the coconut to scrap out some flesh. However, when it tried to take its hand out, it couldn't! It tried furiously to release its hand,but to no avail.
Why?
Coz it panicked! When it panicked, it clenched its fist. It was so hungry, that it desperately tried to get e flesh. n so , it's fist was clenched. After some time, e monkey got tired. It got more relaxed n started to tink of an alternative solution. It relaxed its hand, n slowly removed its hand. To its surprise, it managed to do so! The monkey got so happy, it decided not to eat the coconut.
So what's e moral of the story?
We shouldn't hold on to things so tightly. Sometimes in life, it's better to let go. Better to leave the past behind, n look @ the present, look forward towards the future. If we hang on to things so much, we might not get what we want, or worse, we may inflict emotional and/or physical harm on ourselves. Other than the monkey example, we can have real life examples, like those of relationships. Sometimes, it's much better to move on!

Aniwae, back to sch these couple of daes. b4 i start, i would like ta apologize to my PW members for makin em worried over e darn WR. so sorry again.
Kinda lazee to describe e OCS trip on wed. but well, it was a refreshing and new experience. Propaganda in some sense, but it bascially shows e lifestyle for those officer cadets dere.
Anyway, thurs was a bore. so yep, juz skip it
Ah..fridae...mediocre. Din attend morning assembly. Realized it was kinda waste of time, so decided to chill out in klass. decided to skip chem lecture. after which, a couple of guys den joined me in slacking too. haha..nthg better to do, so after an hour, headed down to maths. realli lucky lor! coz miss ling said those who skipped lecture, names handed to Sharon Phua! phoo!Anywae, oso got bac phy mcq. sux big time..so aint gonna sae it here...sigh. After sch, had to rush home to get e cash for e sch mag n fotoz...yup..wad a rush. i tink im realli tyco lor..wen i went bac home, my mom was on e way back too, so she gave me a lift. What was more astonishing was wen i left my home to go to sch again, i realized i had FORGOTTEN to bring my keys! woah! juz imagine, if she wasn't on e way back, i would have camped outside the house man!
Didn't help out in cleaning e class room. sorry peeps! yeah..but did help out in open dae preps. Got kinda annoyed was wasting time waiting for e section leaders n e rest to come back, so headed back home.

Wasn't realli in e mood to prac my piano, so juz wasted e time. yeah...boring. Sometimes, i realized juz lazing around helps ya relax. strange..but true

Anyway, would like to thank YC for all e advice he's given man! n also to all those who helped me one way or another this week.

- [F]orget [O]ther [C]ommitments [U]ntil [S]uccess -

2 realli free n ez daes

2004-10-12T05:54:00.000-07:00

yep peeps! 11th n 12th of Oct was realli 2 free n ez daes for peeps in NJC. Seems to be games fest for my class had turned out to a PON fest for almost everyone. But it's okie..haha..i kinda wanted to pon lor! but wif all those classmates of mine carrying "parangs", hmm..i'd better not. *haha..if ya get wad i meant*.

11th Oct
Woke up feeling extremely...bored. din realli wanna go to sch, but had to come for some Leadership course. Refreshing experience. Din learn quite some stuff! especially the connection n character thingie ;) Den went over to KAP to haf lunch wif s12. sux initially, coz i dropped my tray of food..sigh. but neway, luckily, onli the burger was fine, i had to redeem e rest. very embarassing..but wth..haf to fill stomach! tt's e most impt. I was contemplating whether to go for the English games thingie lor..in e end, decided to go,although the opportunity cost was prac my piano. yes..kinda regretted in some sense..coz e games were realli quite...pointless. i oso heard on tis dae tt Shaun had signed me in for Speed Climbing lor! i was like, "har!" coz i din realli wanna come for games fest..*haha..yeah..join the pon fest* , but wth lor,after some time, decided,to juz go

12th Oct
Todae, woke up , feeling..strange. anyway, i shant describe the feeling. woke up n prac my piano till 8.15am*of coz, i did haf my breakfast*. went to look for my rock climbing shoes, but culdn't find em...sarks. those shoes were ex man..but aniwae, headed down to sch. haha...a good way to skip assembly lor. upon arriving in sch, had a warm welcome from my canoeing buddies daryl n rachael. heh! been quite some time since i had a chat wif em, but aniwae, had a short chat wif daryl. Rachael was bz on the fone, after which , i headed down to e rock wall to find shaun, but din find him. so aniwae, headed down to e hall, in which i saw my klass. n of coz, i got a realli "warm" reception. phoo! tot dey were gonna hack me away lor. lol =p. anyway, i rushed over to find shaun to climb, n found him over @ e bball courts.
Planning e climbing route was kinda ez..many big tiles to grab. When i heard e current record was 41 secs, i was laughing my head off lor. but of coz, tt didn't mean i could beat it immediately lor. aniwae, i planned my route well, n juz climbed. during e climb, it all juz came to me naturally, din realli tink much. finelly, whacked n touched e last time. asked for timing....24 secs! i was amazed wif myself! this is e 2nd time i speed climbed in my life. i was always a difficulty climber, so i tot i was gonna suc @ this, but i was damn surprised man. truely a breathtaking experience! Also, i was happy for Solaris coz we oso won e Speed Climbing comp! yeah!=)Finally, i felt as though i had realli contributed something in such a long time!

Was still deciding whether to pon e arts performance in e afternoon, on 2nd tots, didn't. din regret after tt! =) E introduction on ballet was quite interesting. can c it's a very tuff form of art. n those dancers sure haf very strong legs n a darn sleak figure, esp e women. Kinda expected.
It's very true, if u go into the highest form of a certain art, it realli gets very very difficult. Take piano for example. It realli is a tuff instrument to master, n to learn too. n it's a nvr ending learning experience too,pickin up lotsa stuff.
But once u master tt highest form, it realli becomes a very spiritual journey for e person. I noe it may seem profound,but it's kinda true

O well, enuff of bl0gging! getting kinda draggy! haha!

Finally! Time to rejoice

2004-10-08T02:05:00.000-07:00

finally..it's 8 Oct! a day which i can realli rest! y? coz e exams r finally over! yeah...has been kinda tuff on me this couple weeks. ..mugging like mad. had to neglect my piano too! sigh`

Anyway, overall, i tink tis exam's kinda fine...XCEPT FOR E CHEM PAPER! tt was montrous lor! i tink it's kinda worse den me learning e B minor Sonata by Liszt(juz wen i tot tt was tuff!).Initially, i tot e 1st few qns were tuff, so i gave away 3, 5 marks..gradually, this added up....nxt thing i knew, i had MANY blank pages in e paper..-sigh-. dunnoe y tio until so tuff!
Phy was quite okie. Quite simple...xcept im afriad tt i may end up makin stupid mistakes..which i've already i/d in some of my questions(bohoo!!). Maths was okie lor..not much emotions abt it. Hm...econs ah...haha..dare not sae anything abt it lor! haha....juz like maths..it's "okie". haha..as long i dun screw it up can liaoz...although....i may haf..to a certain extent =p Overall, i tink it SHULD b okie lor..*crosses fingers*

juz came bac after lunching wif my klass..Seoul Garden. havent been dere for ages lor. anyway, food was fine. e fish was not bad..surprisingly. anyway, i was surprised to find out tt there was no eggs @ all lor. haha..guess itz bcoz of e bird flu scare eh! Strangely, very few pple came. Councillors were bac in sch clearing up e Student Lounge. Meanwhile, my good buddy Chow went to play badminton wif his frends @ clementi..haha..so far, so decided not to follow him. Actually, kinda wanted to go out wif Hengyi , budden klass more impt.haha..no la..muz fill stomach. his klass was like my klass lor..standing in e hall, comtemplating of where to go! aiyah..s12 everytime liddat! can b abit nerving..but well, got kinda used to it liao.

Anywae, after had lunch, went to kino to read books. haha..interestingly, almost everyone started going to e astro part to read abt their star signs. i havent been dere in ages lor. anyway, things more or less hasn't changed, xcept location of e books has shifted. haha..all e crappy stuff n farny stuff we discussed abt e astrology was indeed refreshing n a "good way to destress*(as stated by Crystal..lol). But sometimes, quite true lor. Though i did linger around for too long, coz i wanted to go home prac piano..yeah..soo....weird hor. anyway, wen it came to 3.30, decided to make a move..got kinda boring. din wait for e councillors to come.

Bought CoD:expansion a few days ago. I find e darn multiplayer function darn unstable sia! wassup wif my comp..*or izzit e game*. But overall, it's a damn fine game man! Truely depicts real war like snenarios. In e ending credits, e producers mentioned abt "not forgetting e men and women who have lost their lives to preserve the freedom of their countries and for peace". That is a very inspiration line, n I will also nvr forget those too! Not tt im trying to b nostalgic..but it's true! wadeva we're enjoying cant b taken for granted. Peace is a very fragile thing.

Tok abt being nostalgic, dunnoe y my best frends starting to bcome so nostalgic! Eric n YC mentioned abt e times we used to spend together. haha..yeah..those were e times..truely unforgettable! haha..mayb im unemotional..but true..sometimes, this kinda nostalgia does flood back into my mind! But life has to go on..right? ;)

Anyway, enuff of blogging! haf GOTTA find out WAD's WRONG wif my multiplayer function..strange..hm.. Oso gotta find a day to go out wif her...been quite some time. e last time wanted, but smthg happened..aiyah..wt heck lor. yc oso! tt guy wanna play pool n meet up..darn..nxt week? haha..okie can la...sarks..later results come back.aiyah..dun tok abt tt!Well, YC, n Eric, u both take care broz! n Peeps, enjoy ya freedom! haha! Ardios!
^_^

A new month, a new blog

2004-10-02T23:02:00.000-07:00

Finally, a new blog. Been quite some time since i had one..had one in e past, but didn't wanna continue wivit, coz it sucked. Well, at least this looks better den e previous one. haha..though this one's still in construction

Anyway, nothing exciting bout todae, other den e fact tt i had e Phy SPA. Din realli feel nething abt it..wasn't too tuff nor ez. *so wadcha write for oscillation?* =p
Had to rush off to e toilet after SPA, so decided to head down to e TC block's toilet(coz its BIG n comfy, n no one uses it).

Next thing i knew, after i finished my "business", i started hearing the fumigation sounds...den i realized dey were fumigating e whole darn block!!!! White mists started flowing in like mad. n i had a feeling even e person who was fumigating e block came into the toilet too. When i walked outta e cubicle..it was so misty! couldn't even see a THING. I tot i was in Heaven or smthg liddat. Den e smell kicked in...n it wasn't pleasant. Luckily, e mist wasn't tt harmful..din feel any stingin sensation...but it was kinda scary

When i opened e door of e toilet, white fumes juz swooped in. i could LITERALLY see the fumes flowing in SOOO quickly..e outside was a total whiteness..tt's where i kinda freaked out..coz i couldn't even navigate around. So i juz had to stay in e toilet for some time...n tt's where i felt kinda nausea....i imagined...something was gonna happen

o Well..@ least my patience did help. I had to call Shaun to tell me how was things outside, but even he did not dare to come near. It was soooooo misty..u couldn't even see a thing. well..since i din wanna drag him in, i walked out. This time..it aint tt bad, could see e outline of e ground, n i made a dash for e opening...finally, could see e mist clear...n i was back!
Alive! BREATHING fresh air! haha..nah..juz being weird. but wad an experience it was.

I realized how being calm n patient can realli pay off!

However, that immediately turned into anxiety. I looked @ my watch..n it was 9.45am...15 more mins b4 my church procession started! had to rush, so took a cab...but had to rip off $4++..=(

Rushed home to prac my piano..woo..been quite some time since i played it..bz studying for e exams. So boring. i realli miss playin e piano lor. Tedd's been telling me to prac freq, n im desperately trying to balance out...*seems impossible*.

RJ chem's so demoralizing k! wen i did their past yr PROMOS paper..i realli got frustrated...i mean..how often do ya get frustrated..aiyah..dun tok abt it..tues chem n econs..how to survive..i ask myself tt qn.

O well...better to stay calm n continue revision. Like wad Chee wah has said..Worrying doesn't help! True! Better to continue studying, den juz stop to study! So for all ya peeps outdere who's worring, juz 4get abt it! Just do it! =)

WelcOmE!

2004-10-01T17:05:00.000-07:00

Finally..a new blog! yeah..during tis time of e yr..quite inappropriate. Anywae, do lemme do some customizations first. aint tt ready yet!

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