not being agreeable wif one's self

i dunnoe y..sometimes wen i haf lesson wif Tedd, i realli get frustrated n angry. y?
coz im not performing up to standard. @ home, i can play it much better, den wen i play it in front of tedd, den wen i screw up while playing,i realli get frustrated wif myself, n get very angry wif myself.

sometimes, i juz dunnoe wad in world im doing, y i do e opposite of stuff. den i am not @ peace wif myself...n those kinda sucky emotions juz flood back. den i start to isolate myself. like now. juz wanna cool down. sigh~

sometimes, i juz pray to God n Mother Mary for help. Ever since i've seeked Their spiritual guidance, They've never failed to guide me in every small way. Thank U Both again!

Mayb it's bcoz of my impatience tt's causing all these. yesh..Tedd constantly tells me to lower my tempo for e sonata..tt's wad i shuld do. but sometimes, i dun agree. but on e way back..something struck me.

You've gotta learn to walk first, before You Run.

True isn't it?