Heyz!

It's 12am+

Ya noe..i sumtimes wonder wad's wrong wif me these past couple of daes. izzit due to my lack of slp or exercise? i've been feelin v darn tired..burned out if ya wan me to b exact. Which is y i took a dae off on thurs from usual piano lesson...coz im so tired. esp on mondae..i felt burnt out, n tues it got worse. Well, anywae, coz of tis, i slpt much much more fri nite..abt 12 hrs to b exact..to recuperate my slp loss e whole week.

anywae, forgot to attend trng on mon..darn. tues was prep for big dae. Wed wasn't too nice a dae..it sucked quite badly...but o well, dun wanna tok bout it. haha..played e 9 card guessing game wif my juniors...heh..after e outing on fri, i guess dey figured it out liao..but i'll go to e outing later. thurs was an okay dae la...was kinda shacked on wed, so i took a long rest on thurs.

heh..these past couple of daes been a scadalous week...so mani rumours spreading around bout e Angel Moral thingie...heh..n oso bout who's holding monopoly tt crap. Though i've been tryin to figure out who's my angel.i guess it's a guy la...my a mortal hasn't replied yet..but o well, wif such little effort put it, im not surprised if she didn't reply. Anywae, whoever's my angel, he/she sure did a darn fine job...n im feelin bad bout it. haha..time to atone for my sins

fri was road run, n so i ran..juz for kicks. sucked in it aniwae. havent prac running for almost 6 months, so wad could i expect. though during PE i was astonished i could run 11mins for 2.4km...couldn't believe it. on my last 300 metres, got cheered on by klassmatez, n tt realli motivated me(no..im not being sacarstic! thanks peeps!) Though i din do well, im still quite impressed wif myself for being able to last all e way n having e strength n determination. Thank God n Mother Mary for guiding me thru e road run too. After road run, went out wif junior klass for lunch @ Fish & Co. During e journey, had e usual scandalous stuff again. i was kinda shagged out, so decided to b quiet for some time. Shaun got 33rd lor...e onli guy to get top50. damn impressive, but his knee was givin him trouble. *bro! get better soon man!*

heh..lunch was hilarious. had a nice chat wif e juniors, n yesh..fabian was a pig..he kept ordering fries n fries n fries...in e end, dey gave him a BIGGER bowl of ketchup. It looked so farny lor...a few other juniors came around later, sida n shaun came later too...haha,e crescent gals,fabian, me n JS were observing reuben(if i spelt his name correctly),and e other gals on e other side of e table...n i tell u, it was hilarious! it looked like as though he was e emperor, picking food here n dere, toking left n right,entertaning e gals, n as though e gals were his concubines, n den dere was wil n jeremy beside, n dey were e ...erm...haha. shant wanna sae. but if u were dere,n looked, it looked damn farny. =) After tt we played e EXOTHERMIC REACTION GAME. yeah!!! haha...Joanne got tricked my me lor! Den nxt was Aha...i was tinking..o geezer..everyone noes, but e nxt thing i knew, she turned around n ask " har? What exothermic reaction?" heh! but tis time around, cerise was in e blast radius too, n she oso ganna...erm...if im not wrong, zheng yu oso ganna....sorry juniors! din noe e 2nd one's blast radius was so large. Aniwae, i feel abit bad abt playing tt darn prank lor..so sorry for all e inconvenience caused..but hey..most importantly, dun feel too offended bout it n stay cheerful always!

After which, headed to youth park to tok kok. ALL e seniors left xcept for me. one of e main reason y i stayed was to discuss abit bout e CM thing on 8th Feb..which is v impt. Of coz, everyone dreaded was i was gonna sae, but o well,dey got more serious, after i told em who e VVIPs were. yep..tot it was JS idea to discuss on fri, but guess din discuss much. Den we played mafia. erm...dey weren't too enthu intially, but after a 1 or 2 rounds, dey reali realli got enthu bout it. of coz, dere were e zany accusations, e clueless detectives, e sly mafias trying to disguise as detectives n accuse innocent townsfolks, and last BUT not LEAST, e SUPER EXTREMELY hum ji, kia si(scared die) HEALER! haha..dey realli got enthu bout it. i was tinking dey were getting tired of e game after abt 2 rounds, nxt thing i knew, dey were like "again! new round!" Joanne, Yin Har, n even Wai Leng oso volunteered to bcome narrator lor. haha..Yin Har quite blur blur onez, but cant blame her la...aniwae, she first time narrator. so i juz helped her out as narrator. I did play one round, but tt was damn sucky lor..i was mafia, den i accuse Sui Leng, nxt thign i knew, nxt round i ganna accused liaoz. den i was out..=p all out to sabo me right. haha..joanne always first few to get accused one..damn farny. den e rest of e rounds, i was narrating or aiding e juniors who narrated...After e last match, e juniors gave lotsa positive feedback bout e game. I initially tot tt dey dreaded e game, but after asking em, dey sae dey liked it coz dey finally understood wad was going on...den i was like "true true!" but coming bac to tt,im sure e OGLs did intro e game well to em, y didn't dey like it bac den? pretty strange....but after e final, n by far, one of e farniest round, haikel, zheng yu n cerise had to zao. i tagged along n went home too.

Reached home feeling extremely tired! after reading a few pages of Deception Point by Dan Brown(author of The Da Vinci Code), i fell asleep..it was around 8pm. heh!

Went to extend my passport on sat. kaoz...i wanted to prac my piano in e morning, but my mom realized tt my passport had expired, so i immediately went out n extended it. Heard NJ doens't allow peeps to take leave on CNY eve..tis is horrible lor! THose foreigners who wan to go bac, dey cant go bac lor. not tt im complaning la..but abit la. After which, went to church for devotion in e morning...e story todae was smthg abt moving ahead wif times, n expecting e unexpected in life...smthg liddat..not tt i can recall tt much, coz i didn't realli understand was e priest was saeing...as in, e meaning behind it. Going to church to pray has realli lifted my spirits..yup..it's one of e ways in which i can kinda get Closer to God n Mother Mary.
This past week, i've had a feeling of voidness and emptiness, as though something was missing, n as though i've been losing direction in life. But wif all tt praying n everything, it's made me feel better. Again, i would like to thank God and Mary for wadever They have done for me.

O well, it's 12.41am already. time to slp..yep. gotta shop todae too! nitez pple n haf a grrreat week ahead!

sundae, jan 23rd

it's 12.38am

y am i blogging so late? mayb to let out some steam i guess. but inconveniences can b quite annoying sometimes,esp since i nid to plan, n kinda anticipate some stuff. but aniwae, tt's besides e point.

Anywae, this week's been bz as usual. had recordings on mon n wednesdae. yup...mondae's recording was a mind blowing one...but it was e best one. after e session, i felt extremely enlightened..it was a very...nice feeling. quite diff to describe in words. nxt, recorded e nocturne on wed, which was oso quite enriching. though wasn't like tt on mondae. but i realized e impt thing in playing chopin's pieces. one muz learn to haf e correct sound, n clarity. this legend isn't like Liszt. He doesn't show off his virtuousity on e surface..e difficulty in more innate. which makes his pieces equally difficult. But nevertheless, these are 2 legends on 2 different planes. so we cant juz compare who's better.

okie..enuff of piano. Sch's quite okay tis week. juz tt had to do trial road run, which is quite boring in some sense. havent been running often, so stamina sux. tt's besides e point anywae. i realized, i've been so bz, i dun even haf time to do my hmwk. ya..no time to do work. im like..o geezer. so aniwae, spent this whole weekend studying. got kinda screwed by my tutors for not doing my work, so tis coming week, i'll prove em wrong. heh!

b4 i start, how was Hari Raya Puasa for all? mine was quite fun. SV outing in e morning. finally, knew everyone's names...well...erm...i may haf forgotten one or 2, but dey're from IP. yr 2s, i definitely remembered all! aniwae, played Taboo den had some sharing session. After which, went out makan wif em. friendly crowd. aniwae, thanks for e outing. though small but simple, but it was quite enriching, in some sense. After which, wanted to go shopping. Joel actually wanted to watch Phantom of e Opera..but i declined. sorry bro. aniwae, called up yc, but he wasn't free...argh. decided not to shop, so headed bac home. abit of a wasted trip, but i'd rather shop wif my cousins or yc.

sat spent doing work..catching up. aniwae, im deciding of taking up Bible Studies wif my cousins. but im afraid my parents might b against it. i dun realli intend to tell my dad bout it, coz he's quite against christianity...my mom's a catholic, so sometimes he goes against her wen it comes to religion. all these past few months, im trying to fake my way out, but i guess my dad will guess it sooner or later. aniwae, my mom might be against it in some sense, considering tt im soooooo bz,wif recordings n sch work. i can understand, but seriously, i find it MORE meaningful if i understood my religion more. anyway, all those meanings found in between e lines of e Bible are truely enlightening things and learning points, which i find them very applicable. But i'll find a way..i definitely Find A Way.

Anywae, tt's all for now. darn..gotta do NY shopping soon too! ~

Being Simple

it has dawned upon me tt like wad i mentioned in my previous entry, being simple minded solves alot of probs...emotional problems sometimes.

anywae, tis week has been quite passive..nthg realli interesting happening. juz had 1 meeting for CM. yeah...NE rep has changed. guess JH got kinda stressed out, so JS took over. i can understand how JH felt, esp being picked on by SP all e time..too much. It's a good thing i got a week off from piano...i was realli feeling very very drained already. fortunately, dere's something which drives n motivates me everydae. Anywae, tis week was a getting bac week for s12. everyone finally got bac together in klass to catch up (in some sense). Oso, had lotsa admin stuff to handle. Fortunately, i have a very very(n yesh..i mean wad i write n sae) responsible klass rep to help me wif this. im glad she is, coz im soooooo bz wif piano n stuff, i realli sometimes let all these admin stuff slip past me. haha..she oso reminds me often bout it, so i dun forget too. *thank u!*

Mrs Cheng announced bout another outing for e J1s for CM. urgh...everyone's getting disgusted bout it...but no choice lor. luckily, JS very responsible. he's going all out to ensure everything's fine. again..another fine n responsible crew member on board e CM crew. haha!

anywae, enuff of sch stuff, time to talk abit more on personal stuff.

Back to wad i said above, it's better to haf a simple mind. life gets less complicated. y do i sae so? mayb reading my previous entry would help. Again, im faced wif many very tough decisions tt will ultimately affect my future n my family. yesh..it's my recital. dere's sooo much issues i haf to settle. sometimes, all these tough decisions can realli dampen my spirits. in klass, i may seem like e cheerful me, always talking joking...etc. tt's bcoz i wanna let it all out...but deep down inside, i noe i cant run away from my probs. i've gotta solve em. n i aint too happy bout it. Again, i would like to thank God for having such a wonderful klass. Dey r truely a great bunch of pple!

Love is complicated. My mom was chatting wif her sister(my aunt..like duh!). n dey tok abt teenager relationships. They mentioned this point abt teens like us, falling in love easily. it's soo true. everyone experiences tt, but each person reacts to it differently. for me...i haf a tuff time reacting to it. it affects me very deeply. yeah..im some1 who's very in touch wif my emotions..but pple dun realize it.
I've fallen in love b4, but this time, i'm falling in love with someone. n tt again, sickens me. no..not tt person, but bcoz i cant concentrate on wadever im doing. but i guess, tis tot will gradually disappear. Had better be...

Din haf much time to catch up wif buddy YC. anywae, he looks sooo much happier now. i glad he is. i guess he finally realized lotsa stuff, n he oso told tt to me. haha..i did mention it to him @ e end of 2003 of how he's changed over, but he didn't realize. guess wif all those tots gone, he's finally settled down to rethink bout it. he did wanna haf a chat wif me,but i couldn't find e time.Mayb i ought to sit down n oso gif some thoughts bout myself

aniwae, tt's enuff for now. all these ramblings r getting boring...juz wanted to let out some emotions...

9th of Jan

hmm..i realized i've blogged too much, but there's a good reason y im blogging

todae's another dae, juz tt i went over to my grandad's place to haf lunch wif all my relatives. haha..reached dere e latest..coz e bus journey was darn long. Din go out for movie wif my cousin as originally planned...haha..coz dey had a cash deficit...haha..i'll learn tt phrase from now onwards. Anywae, my younger cuzzie oso didn't wanna watch e movie Aviator. haha..quite frankly, i also kinda didn't wanna watch movie. so aniwae, we juz tok n tok n tok. n of coz, i met my youngest cousin, Candice, who's like...17 yrs younger den me. haha..yeah..she was juz born last yr. but she's sooooo adorable! yeah..i rarely sae babies being adorable, but she's soooo cute lor. haha..she juz kept coming up to me, and she was very curious of me, n of coz, i did entertain her quite a bit!
dunnoe y..babies like biting n touching stuff...she bit some strap on my shorts lor...haha..luckily i told her not to. Quite obedient. den she was touching my specs n stuff...she's juz so adorable! =)

Aniwae, e more i write, e more i sound like a guy. yesh..guys dun usually write these kinda stuff...but y m i writing all these weird stuff?

Babies' innocence...dey're juz soooo innocent. unaware of wad's going on, n very curious to find out tis n that. in some ways, dey oso represent hope of a new generation. amidst all tt's happening, like e Tsunami disaster, we muz always look forward, n always hang on to Hope. Sometimes, in life, we juz haf to haf a simple mind. It's bcoz of all tt's happened over our life time, tt we start having a complicated mind, n think too much abt stuff, wen, it is actually damn simple. bcoz of having a complicated mind, it generates lotsa negative thoughts, esp those of paranoia, jealousy etc.

In some ways, let us be like babies. Sometimes in life, juz be simple. Dun tink complicated. Life would b much much easier! =-)

1st Week of School

yup! Back to sch again!

Aniwae, i woke up darn late, n realized tt i would b late. Worse still, first dae of sch, dere wuld usually b a very very bad traffic jam! i was like...o gosh! but aniwae, most peeps were late. haah..tt was first

During e week had to settle mani admin matters wif ros, n had to do planning of fridae's CM wif jun hao. very hectic week, furthermore, i had to rush down to sch almost every dae for recordings, which usually ended around 12am. the one on thurs ended @ 1.30++am. heh...but keep in mind, i started late, so ended late. heh...i had dinner wif John everydae, n he was truely a humourous guy. always pumped myself wif coffee to stay awake for late nites. Though for thurs, dere wasn't ani coffee, so i decided to settle for tea...but seriously, i still tink coffee is better lor.

planning for CM was crazee i tell u. First dae of sch..yesh..onli first dae of sch, i had to stay bac wif JH n Ros to plan it. planning for e treasure(cum location) hunt was even more jia lat. on mondae, stayed bac till 6pm. n subsequent daes were kinda better though. Seriously, i tink tis whole CM is a total waste of time n effort, n i haf no idea y SP wanted to initiate e whole proj, furthermore, let US, yes..US! yr 2s! do it! i mean, we're having A lvls tis yr, so bz, n u wan us to do tis crap! she's too much..a total air head n no brainer!

Aniwae, enuff of her, let's get bac to sch life shall we? haha..caught up again wif my frends, though not wif e OGLs, coz dey were so bz, so klass attendance everydae would b 17. we did crash into orientation on wed, where we we intro'ed to our junior klass, 05s12! QUite a bubble bunch, n my first impression, quite sociable. haha..u can correct me if im wrong la hor, but tt's juz first impression. den of coz, Luciano was located @ e squash court, like last yr, Delphi was oso located @ e squash court. den dere was e usual cheers, games etc. Finally, we 04s12 headed bac to lectures.

fri was another hectic dae. morning had icebreakers wif our juniors. nxt lecture, n finally, we started e CM. JH n I stayed bac to gif e briefing bout e CM. meanwhile, Ros n Chow went around to place e clues. Finally, we set off.

actually, tis treasure cum location hunt went quite smoothly. ros's grp was soooo enthu lor! mine wasn't lor..in fact dey were quite pek chek..sigh. jh grp's was worse. wen dey came bac to sch, dey didn't even do anithing. but aniwae, dun wanna tink bout it. aniwae, im glad some of my s12 peeps did appreciate wad we've done! thanks 04s12! u roc!

stayed in sch wif e klass. after a while, i broke up wif e klass n played e piano in e hall. nthg better to do. no one was watching, so aniwae, i juz played my hearts out. felt so good after tt. went bac to e walkway, den had a nice chat wif qing yang. soon, it was 5pm, n e dance party was starting soon. juz as we about to head to coro, jun hao left. so aniwae, it was onli e remaining 3 of us; me,mabel n joce. haha..had tuna n crackers @ e stairs. tok tok tok, eat eat eat, n it was 7pm++! time to head bac to sch for party..wen we reached e side gate! ahhh!! locked! luckily sumone told us tt e guard had went to e toilet for a while, so we juz waited. haha..our patience paid.

dance n partied wif o5s12, n e OGLs. haha..seriously, tis dance party does bring bac lotsa memories. haha..though, 05s12 wasn't dancing soo much. leon was continually encouraging em to dance lor. but aniwae, we had fun. haha..so sorry yen! din noe how to do e mass dance...i looked so stupid,haha...but i did haf fun la! o yeah! n not forgetting i hanged out wif buddies brent n shaun to see mr yeo do e DJ mixing..so kewl. though he didn't haf those big turn tables! man! tt would b totally cool man!

soon, i had to head home, coz muz beat e crowd. i was oso getting quite tired...all e build up of fatigue these past couple of daes. haha..n finally, had a good nite's rest!

aniwae, tt's all for now! ~ =)